SECTION A
~ Call me : wendalyn
~ Age : 16
~ Height : 159
~ Hair color : reddish?
~ Eye color : black
~ Where I'm am nw ? home

SECTION B : HAVE U EVER ??
~ Pee in ur pants ? yea. Everyone did.
~ Fallen off e bed ? yea.
~ Fallen for a relative ? nahx.
~ Plastic surgery ? nope.
~ Failed a grade ? yea.
~ Broken someone's heart ? tink so.
~ Had ur heartbroken ? YEA.
~ Had a dream cum true ? nope.
~ Cheated on a test ? yah.

SECTION C : CURRENTLY -
+ Wearing : op tees, shorts
+ Eating : nth.
+ Feeling : confused
+ Readin : this survey
+ Located : at yishun
+ Chatting wif : ngiex darling
+ Watching : da monitor
+ Craving : lurve
+ Should really : go and do homework.

SECTION D : DO YOU ... -
- Brush ur teeth ? yar-
Like anyone ? sort of
- Have any piercing ? on ma ears
- Drive ? no
- Love GOD ? ermm, I dun believe in tat
- Ever get off e damn computer ? yes

SECTION E : FRIENDS ?
* Who are ur best ? gwenyth, ms oh, kaya, xl, chel, mic, ngiex, xueyan, dad, faggot, moger,
* Who is e loudest ? ms oh, dad
* Who ish e shyest ? xl
* Who is e hottest ? none. lol.
* Who laughs e most ? ms oh, gwenyth
* Who have u know e longest ? mic, chel
* Do u hang out with e opp sex ? yea. dey are most probably my bros.
* Do u consider urself hot ? not at all.
* Do u trust ur friends ? some of dem.
*R u a gd friend ? not veri sure of tat.
* Can u keep a secret ? ya

SECTION F : LAST PERSON U ? ...
+ Hugged ? no one.
+ Talked on e phone ? Damien dad. giving him da tyme slot fer movie
+ Yelled at ? no one.
+ Checked out ? dunno
+ Fell in love with ? *secret
+ Tripped ? no one
Turned dwn ? stef

SECTION G : PERSONAL ? ...
* Wad do u wan to b when u grow up ? designer?
* Wad was e worst day of ur life ? 19th abt mar in 2002/2001
* Wad has been e best day of ur life ? da best day still haben comes.
* Wad comes first in ur life ? mummy.
* What do u usually tink of b4 u go to bed ? can I dun go to sch tml.

SECTION H : FAVORITE ... -
+ Movie : windstruck
+ Song : lost, broken, confused by mest
+ Store : -
+ Relative : lil cousin
+ Sport : swimming
+ Ice cream flavor : strawberry
+ Fruit : strawberry
+ Candy : chewy ones
+ Car ? -
+ Magazine : teenage
+ Day of the week : sun
+ Color : black, pink, white, blue.

SECTION I : DO YOU ... -
+ Like to give hugs ? yea
+ Like to walk in e rain ? in drizzle.
+ Prefer black or blue pens ? blue.
+ Dress up for halloween ? never
+ Haf a job ? nope
+ Like to travel ? not reali
+ Slp on ur side tummy or back ? tummy
+ Wan to marry ? never.
+ Have a goldfish ? in da past.
+ Ever had e falling dream ? yar
+ Have stuffed animals ? last tyme lor.
+ Go on vacation ? yea

SECTION J : WHAT DO U THINK ABOUT WHEN U FIRST HEAR THE WORD -
+ Abortion : murder!
+ Bill Clinton : i dunno who is him
+ Summer : let's go SWIMMING!
+ Tattoos : a lifetime thing.





haix

survey

[Spell your first name backwards]:
nlyadnew

[The story behind your email add]:
i've got a irc nick which ish baby^sun

[Where do you live]
yishun

[Wallet]:
-

[Hair]:
coloured

[Jewelry/Accesories you wear daily]:
nth.

[Pillow cover]:
white with hearts and cirles

[Shoes] :
too many to descibe.

[What you are wearing now]:
home clothes.

[In my head]:
why m i feeling so vex

[Some of your favorite movies]:
windstruck and sassy girl

[Something you're looking forward ??
to mit stef

[The last thing you ate?]:
strawberries

[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]:
heartaches, being cheated.

[Do you like candles]:
okie lor.

[Do you believe in a thing called love]:
NO. no longer lor.

[Do you believe in soul mates]:
Yea.

[Do you believe in love at first sight]:
nope.

[If you could have any animal for a pet]:
i want a dog.

[What are some of your favorite foods?]:
strawberries

[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in along time?]:
stef, rachel, mic, jo, kit mun.

LAST TIMES
u [Gotten sick:]
long ago.

[Felt stupid:]
today.

[Hugged someone:]
354768794564353yrs ago.

[Talked to someone you have a crush on]
ytd.

[Fought with your parents:]
forgot.

[Dreamed about someone you can't be with:]
3 days ago?

[Do you like being around people:]
yea.

[Who have you known the longest:]
chel.

[Who do you always get along with:]
dad, yp, gwenyth, kaya, xl, hydrogen tat aka moger, hydrogen tong, kw, gen, hl,
aiya. in short, almost everyone.

[Make someone angry:]
nahx.

[Cry:]
247657854821 yrs ago

[Say Sorry:]
days ago

[Feel Happy:]
96524365876295385 million yrs ago.

The End






i want you somehow.

sianz

Dere’s a change in our seating arrangement.
Damien dad ish sitting beside mi,
laogong ish rite behind him,
and yuh chu behind mi.
not bad lar,
gossip lesser, but kinda quiet and lonely at tymes.
dad can be quite crappy too.
afterall ish okie lor.
at least not veri quiet and not veri loud.
sleeping lesser in class.
feeling vex lar.
personal stuff.
ma private life ish like shit.
and i mean SHIT.
nvm,
i'm juz gonna put it aside lar.
studies ish still impt den all da SHIT.
prelim ish near, so ish Os.
haix.
dunnoe lar.
fan si le.
needa smoke or wad lar.
dun reali feel like eating tish few days.
wadever it is liaox.
gtg.
//runs

phew...

ORAL ish over!!
i'm so relieved.
phew~
at least i speak.
at LEAST.

going sch lata fer nite study.

oh ya.
DAMIEN DAD;
if u are reading,
juz wanna tell u,
if tat's a joke, [u noe wad i mean]
its not funny.
and i will slap ur arse.
haha.
oh well,
wish u happiness to u and ur baby k. :)
and last forever and ever and never ends.
do take care of my husband too.
lala

..
//runs

getting sick of mag

FUCK DA FOO!
diaox.
i didnt even tok today lor,
i was juz luffing away,
and she scolded mi.
yea yea.
even dom oso kena.
plish lor,
see us not happi oso dun nid to pull others one lar.
dere's so many ppl toking and u juz like to call upon us.
damien dad and gary were toking to us,
y didnt u call on them?
yuan ping didnt even comment abt u lor,
she juz ask mi to look at u and luff.
veri big deal mehx.
bytch.
u are such a bytch!
juz shut up.
its beta fer ya to kick us out of da class lor.
we dun hafta see ur fuck face lar.
u are annoying me.
juz go away lar.
-_-
//tata







will ya ever like mi? :(

another post

needa smoke somehow.
:(

:(

vex lar

i hate ma life

grrt.
i hate ma life.
its in a big mess.
i wasted my weekends.
its sunday, 646pm,
homework still undone.
no revision ish done.
worried fer da damn oral which is on tues.
I HATE MA LIFE!
its fucking bloody.

back :)

hmm.
was rather busy wif stef's fone calls.
she got big prob wif her new gf.
she called everyday to tok over it and blah blah blah.
;/
sometimes i juz wondered,
is she using mi or wad?
onli when she and her gf got probs den call mi to chat.
or she juz find mi a better person to confide in?
dunno her lar.
better dun let mi find out she;s using mi lor.
haix.
sian lar.
//runs

VERI VERI VERI DU LAN

ponned geog lar.
sian half.
no mood today.
was pissed by a sms.
"scram off"? aiya. i bo wae gong k.
fuck k.
FUCK.
and was veri pissed off wif MAG FOO.
she's a fucking cheebye.
another one i bo wae gong one.
juz fuck her off lar.
cant wait fer her to kick mi out of her lesson.
den i can dun see her fucking face.
zhen dui me,
u tink i dunnoe mehx.
yp can scold u like shit and u dun give a damn.
she fierce so u dun scold her rite.
i veri good to bully rite.

ya ya ya.
bully mi all u all wan k.
happi?
i'm fucking du lan wif almost everything and everyone now.

my life ish in a mess lar.
fucking life.
maybe i shldnt have care fer all da bros, siss, frens, net frenx or some other fuck frens lar.
sometymes ppl juz come to mi cos they got some prob,
and when i nid someone,
dun seems to have any one ard.

grrt.
in a VERI BAD mood now.
if that bloody mag foo gonna shout my name again
imma walk out of her fuck class.
and i will not go to sch fer a week.
even have to see DM i oso dun care liaox.
FUCK EVERYTHING.
i may not go to sch tml.
no MC no letter.
cant be bothered wif all da fucking things and ppl ard mi.

IM BACK

com ish down wif virus[s]


yest nite chatted wif adrian in irc.
he ish still in ns.
we sms till morning 1 am,
i fallen aslp.
woke up at 4,
still sms wif him.
slp again.
he sent mi a msg at 5.50,
and off he goes,
back to camp.
when will we chat again?
i dunnoe.
hafta wait fer him to msg mi le lor.
;/

ngiex: do take care ah,
rest well and get well soon k.

been slacking fer da past few days.
gonna revise a lil fer today.
sighs.
i reali dunnoe how to make it fer Os sia.
its like,
i'm still in slack mode.
-shrugs-

new skin

:)

thur`
went pasam malan wid xueyan, huiyin, peiya and huian after nite study.
being wif dem ish so fun.
can reali luff. :)
reached hm at abt 11.


fri`
ponned sch lar.
amanda, yp and gary oso nv go.
:)
ha.
who cares abt tat sucky sch.

1)Starting time: 10.40
2)Name: wendalyn tay wei shan
3)Nicknames: shan. wenda.
4)Age: 16
5)Email: sun_1988@hotmail.com
6)Eyes: shld b black
7)Height: 158/159 cm
8)Siblings: 1 bro.
9)Been drunk before: nahx.
10)bEenCheated: yea.
11)Missed school cause of rain: never.
12)Set any body part on fire for amusement: duhx.
13)Had a secret from everyone: yuppie.
4)Had an imaginary friend: never.
15)Wanted to hook up w/ a kabarkada: wad da heck?
16)Smacked or grabbed a guys/girls ass: yea. haha. smack onli lar.
17)Had a crush on a teacher: never lar. like how dumb.
18)Ever thought of animated characters: no.
19)Ever owned a 'New Kids on the block' cd: no.
20)Ever prank called someone?: no.
21)Been on stage: yes
33)Cried: yea.
34)Been mean: yea. but tat was ma past.
37)Met someone new: nah. on fone onli lor.
38)Talk to someone you had a crush on: yea.
39)Missed someone: nope.
40)Hugged someone: yea, but i forgotten ish who liaox.
41)Fought w/ parent(s): no.
42)Wished upon a star: used to do it.
43)Laughed until u cried: yea. some jokes are juz so funni.
44)Watched sunrise/sunset: sunrise.
46)Went to the beach at night: nope.
47)Read a book for fun: plish lar.
48)Ate meat: yea. but no pork plish.
50)Lonely: not reali. but sometymes when i;m depress, i feel lonely
51)Are you talking to someone online: not now.
59)Who named you? : mi and my mum.
60)Backstreet Boys or N'sync: n'sync
61)Last time u showered: 11.
62)Last thing u said when u talked: bye to wenyi and leqi.
63)Whats right nxt to you: air.
64)Whats your computer desk made of: wood
65)Last thing u drink: sprite. i shared it wif my darling joyce.
67)Where u wan 2 go on ur honeymoon? japan.
68)Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: haben found tat person yet.
69)Weather right now: cool.
70)What did you do last night: sleep.
72)How do YOU eat an Oreo: juz eat it lar.
73)All time favorite tv show: light years, extreme makeover.
74)Dream car: yolkswagen (bettle-liked car)
75)What do you want to be: designer.
77)Fav music: you ni zhen hao
79)Fav food: strawberries!
80)Fav day of the week: sat night.
82)If u could change your name, what would it be: WENDALYN.
83)Do you sleep w/ stuffed animal: no longer.
84)What stupid thing u've ever done?: haha. cant say. so embarassing.
85)First son's name: -
86)Wife/Husband: -
87)First daughter's name: -
88)Fave drink: ice lemon tea.
89)You like scary or funny movies better?: scary.
90)On the phone or in person: on fone. i;m a shy person. :)
91)Lust or Love: Love lOve loVe lovE love LOVE
92)If you could change something about yourself?: more lady-like. or undergo a sex change operation to become a boy. buaha.
93)Do you consider cheerleading a sport: yea.
94)Do you have pets: chinchillas
95)Who sent this survey to you: copy frm kerine's blog
96)What do you think about this person: cute, swt, pretty and nice.
97)What is your fav song?: lian ren wei man.
99) time finished: 10.53
100) Do you think everyone is stupid: no.

shack lar.

chat on fone wif ngiex darling last nite.
chat till 2 in da morning.
was so tired da whole day.

i'm here to clarify things.
now. for tish veri tyme, i shall sae it for once and fer all,
i dun like wenyi anymore can.
i'm serious tat i;ve got no feeling fer him anymore.
he can be wif jac all he wants,
hug in class, i dun care.
none of my business.
i dun feel hurt anymore.
of cos he ish still ma fren.
but guys,
if they are reali together, dun have to hide it k.
i dun care anymore.
i wont drop a tear fer him anymore.
not a SINGLE drop.
and tat's a promise.

yea. had a quarrel wid gary in class.
not reali quarrel lar, he didnt argued back much.
wadever lor.
not gonna sae much lar,
shall cool down before settling anything bah.
i hate all humans wif dicks i tell u.
got dick veri big ah.
guys.
plish lar.
;/








will nv drop any tears fer any guys anymore.

juz another post

had a fone chat wif stef and renie yest.
realli confused by stef,
a moment ago she said she had alreadi turn str8,
den after i called renie to conference wif them,
she toks abt gf and stuff.stupid woman.
had a serious headache yest nite.
went to slp after putting dwn da fone.
there goes my phy test. ;/

ermmm,
i may not be updating tish blog often.
due to Os.
its so near.
dun have much tyme to waste.
changing da blog add after Os too.
tat's all fer now.
tata
//runs








sometymes i juz feel like i'm a boy trapped in a woman body.
i dunoe myself anymore.

*dadreamtatwillnevercometrue

sch was fine till da last period.
all thx to yingsheng.
i wasnt angry abt not getting any chocolates.
as if i cant buy it.
lets not tok abt tis.
back to da last period.
our dear ying sheng wrote a love story,
which not at all romantic,
not at all touching.
but it brings back all my pain.
now i;m feeling heartbroken.
his so-so story made mi tink of mi, him and her.
wad da hell.
i juz told myself and all ma buddies tat i alreadi dun like him on monday.
and now,
all da dumb feelings ish back again. :(
grrt.
i even teared when i lay on yp's leg.
i;m like under da table lar, so no one noes.
i'm so sad tat i kept hugging yp in da class.
da whole afternoon ish like so sad lar.
how i wish dere ish someone here now,
can lend mi his/her shoulder and juz let mi cry. :(
he dun even care how i feel.
all he cares abt ish her.
HER.
not ME.
not at all.
:(
i;m gonna write my story too.
buaha.
not an open one.
may be post on blog.
maybe not.
okie.
i gonna say no more.
too sad.
//runs

 

 

 
he walks away wif her,
without knowing tat i'm still waiting.

*ponned remedials

got nth much to say.
was in a lousy mood.
juz wanan tell dad and fag tat i wasnt reali angry wif them,
i was more angry wif ms lee,
its like i type out da whole essay till 1 in da morning,
she sae must write out.
if i dun wanna pass my o, i sure wont write fer her de lor.
knn de lehx.
ponned 2 remedials so i can go home eariler to finish most of my tupid hw.
i;m half done :)
tat's a good thing.
i have never did so much writing b4.
and i have never complete so much of my homework b4.
in a better mood now.
hafta finish everything so i can slp early tonite.
//runs

aini and tuti was looking at gwenyth's foto album
den they look at bryan's pic,
and look at mi again.
den they say bryan and mi look alike.
buaha.
do we look alike?

*ponned remedial

homework fer today:
hols asst - eng compo
hols asst - func. writing
chinese compo
chinese func. writing.

i haben done any of them yet.
m veri veri tired today.
ponned eng remedial.
i mean its a lil waste tyme, i can do da tys myself at hm.
went home and slp like a piggy.
woke up at abt 7.20
slack till now.
gonna do hw soon.
;/
//runs

*new skin

woooohoooooooo
new skin ehx.
a pic of mi and bra-yan.
i find it cute therefore its up dere.
dun get da wrong idea ;p
bryan, hope u dun mind ehx.
:)
gtg.
//walks away

*i miss dem!

okie.was back frm studying.
feel so bad tat i pang seh gay and go study wif rachel instead.
i;m bad.

been sms-ing wif keith.
she's sad tat da girl she like all tis while going to have a bf/gf  soon.
juz like my case.
hmmm,
i dunno wad can i sae to keith,
its like can't help it.
can onli tell her not to sad.
i doubt she can see tish,
but i juz wanna sae,
dear bro,
since she dun appreciate u,
she dun appreciate wad u did fer her,
dun appreciate ur love,
forget her,
u ought to be wif a better girl who will appreciate u.
stop telling urself tat u are ugly and u cant get a gf.
love ish not abt looks,
its abt da heart.
i'm sure one day u can get ur baby.
u still haf stef and mi to care for u hor
and many many of ur frens
thou i may not be tat close wif you,
may not reali be dere when u are sad,
u can always sms mi ya?
do take care.

okies,
i noe how to sae ppl,
dunnoe how to say myself.
buaha.
i;m trying my veri best to forget him.
but hope tat i can be fren wif him till da end of tyme.
;/

stef got bf le.
i concluded myself tat she got a bf lar.
she nv tell mi a thing.
its a guess.
i miss her
her craps
and her laughter.
i miss tat supid gerl, my big jiejie.
i wanna meet up wif dem!

but when can i get out of my dumb hse?
i mean i can get out of da hse lar,
but not veri frequently
and its tat they always jio mi at da wrong tyme.
nvm.

 


i miss stef jiejie and keith korkor alot alot.

duh.

chatting wif stef on msn.
she ish like taking 475748650323yrs to reply mi.
so i decided to blog a lil.
i told her, i feel so bitch and slut looking back at my past.
i;m such a slut.
tink not much ppl noe y i feel slut.
but im such a slut.
i;m silly.
im stupid.
im bitch.
:(

*tired.

went out wif gwenyth.
shop ard bishan.
went woodland library after tat.
did some homework.

feeling tired.
'm tired of telling myself tat i still like him.
telling myself i have to continue to like him.
but its like,
i stand no chance to be him,
why shld i hang on?
i dunnoe.
its like...
haix.
why da fuck i like him.
i dunnoe.
sometymes i told myself, wad's so good abt him?
he ish juz treating mi as a fren.
maybe even juz classmates.
maybe its tyme to let go.
he will nv ever be mine.
sad la.
haha.
but who cares?
he would nv feel how i feel,
nv care how i feel,
nv noe da pain i've been thru.
oh well,
dere 's lots of better guy out dere.
some day, some one will appreciate mi lar.
grrt.
//runs






i still like him :(

hasnt been blogging,
getting lazier.

ponned eng course.
went town wif kahwah, amanda and gary.
kahwah and amanda bought a FF9/ FF10 cigg case stuff, they decide to use it as a wallet.
its veri nice, tink i will buy for my bro.
went back to northpoint.
loiter fer a while den went to mac.
was chatting wif amanda and gary.
went hm after tat.
tired.

hmmm.
i'm a contradicting person.
do i still like him?
if i dun, why do i still think abt him?
why do i still cry when i thot of him as i listen to songs?
WHY?!
i guess ish da disappointment.
all da waiting dun worth.
maybe tat's y.
grrrt.
forget it.

i'm gald tat mi and amanda can be fren again lar.
all tis while i still sondering if she still rmb da quarrel thing, so i didnt tok to her.
but she told mi she forget abt everything le.
so like, juz fren fren lor.

gonna change my skin soon.
downloaded a skin wif  'my sassy girl' pic.  :)
shall stop here.
tata.
//runs

sprained ma ankle :(

sort of ponned da stupid eng course fer awhile.
was sitting at da staircase wif ngiex and chat.
yp thot i was stucked in da toilet so she came to find mi.
yp join da us at da staircase.
afterawhile,
gary thot both of us was stucked in da toilet, he came to find us.
he join us too.
no long after, mrs lee came dwn and we all went into da toilet and gary went back to class.

ms lee told mi tat my english isnt tat bad,
its juz tat my work is always full of spelling and grammer mistakes.
careless.
shall be more careful.
actualli ms lee isnt tat bad at all lar.
shall be guai during her lesson.   :)

after chem remedial, we suppose to go hm.
blackie wanted to send yp hm
so we was like: let's go let's go, let them be alone.
i was talking and walking away quickly
den -duhx-
i sprained my ankle right in front of da sch gate
and fell flat on da floor.
its hurts like shit.
i cant even stand up.
so paisae lor.
sit dere fer a while, they get a cab fer mi and i go hm wif giokhui.
its still hurting now.
wonder if i'm able to wear da costume and da 'flipflop' on wed.
its reali hurts like shit.
tink my parents ish already quite broke, shall forget abt seeing a doc.
guess da ankle will get well by itself.

-yawns-
shall study fer kinematics and get some info on animal abuse.
tata.
//runs

-sighs-

-sighs-
sobbed yest.
yeah yeah becos of HIM.
whenever da thots of da fact that i cant have him came into my mind,
i felt thousands of  knifes stabbing into my hearts.
my mood went down down DOWN.
its as thou my heart ish bleeding.
oh well.
but its alreadi a fact tat i cant have him.

wad i wanna do fer da tish few months:
- forget him [as in not to love him, mi and him still buds ya]
- forget da pain
- study real hard
- not to slp in class
- have positive attitude towards studies
- pass all da FT
- finish all da hw tat i suppose to finish
- be guai
- have lesser outing
- go online lesser
- pass ma Os.

yeah.
thinks tat's all fer wad i can tink of now.
gotta study fer chem test le.
//runs
 

 
 
 
i hate to tear. esp for  him.

back home

okie. went town and bugis again.
basicalli, i'm so FAT tat i couldnt get any skirt tat fits.
bought a purse or sth like a purse.
oh ya,
ytd those 3 men are from da police headquater.
i dunnoe wad reali happen to my i/c and ezlink, probably some crime stuff or wad.
feeling tired.
gotta finish my hw and revise fer chem test.
tata.
//runs
 
 
 
 
i'm so FAT
 

blurr

its abt 12.
someone pressed on my doorbell.
opened da door.
3 men. some sort of offficer or wadever.
tish attention[or wadever it is] syafiq someone found/holding on to my ezlink.
took down a statement and asked mi to fax my police report to him.
i told him i got no fax machine. but he sitll asked mi to fax.
i was a lil blur.
okie. someone found it on da floor or wad.
was told to make a new one.
someone found it, which mean someone ish holding on to my i/c and wallet.
wonder if anything horrible would happen? some illegal stuff?
worried.
i'm sleepy now.
nitez.
-sighs-
//runs

grrt.
i juz typed an entry and it wasnt posted.
let's make it short.
went out wif blackie, kw,ky, xl, moger and yp.
took neos and watched sisters.
going out tml.
that's all fer now.
buaha.
//runs

-edit-

i'm so gald tat i didnt bought won fu's album.
i borrowed from renick.
da lyrics ish so stupid and dumb.
so silly tat i was luffing my ass off.
make my day :)

-whine-

I HATE SCHOOL
feel like ponning tml.
its like always got scolded,
wad da hell, sometymes its not even my fault oso.
i wasnt even sleeping and ms foo shout for mi.
im like how bad mood alreadi
so pissed off wif ms low and chengze lor
i was juz replying sherwin or wad and she scold mi.
fuck lor.
I HATE MYSELF
chengze, u think i like to be ugly meh.
but da god and my parents give mi tish face de ma
wad can i do?
like fuck like tat.
i alreadi veri zi(4) bei(1) le
dun say mi anymore can.
i had enuff comment abt how ugly i m.
even on my way to some places, strangers call mi ugly
when i was in pri sch, ppl call mi pig
my lil cousins call mi ugly u think i not sad meh
u tink i dun wan to change my face meh
u tink i wan to be who i m meh.
y not u try to be mi, and got all those insults
i had enuff of all these shit lor.
dun force mi lor.
i will juz kill myself lor,
call mi stupd or retarded
i cldnt care much anymore.
its reali hurtful lor.
i will jump from 16th floor and fall flat on my face,
so i can disfigure my face,
when blood and flesh all smash and mix together
and no one will see my ugly face anymore.
maybe i shldnt go to sch or stay on earth anymore
monster shldnt walk ard sch to scare ppl
and monster dun belongs to earth
i belong to hell.-pissed-
//runs


i hate to feel hatred. but i was forced to.

CRAMPS! CRAMPS! CRAMPS!

sch ish still as boring as ever.
got my period.
like wad da hell, always so suddenly.
went to da toilet and saw a red patch.
sian half.
-__________-

there was once, my period keep coming for 2 weeks.
grrrt.
hate it.
but i onli have once in every 3 mths :)

m having cramps now.

I HATE CRAMPS!
I HATE HAVING PERIOD!

//runs

*out*

went town and bugis wif giokhui.
i bought a slipper or flip flop or wadever it is. quite nice.
went to took neos wif giokhui
dat machine was rather 'special'
we hafta choose dose pic tat we dun wan so it will not be print out.
but we was so blur and we click on all da pic we wan.
in e end, we got all 16 pieces of da same pic.
we goes : -_____________________-
-faint-
we took it again.
like so waste money...
lazy to upload da neos, shall do it next tyme.
hmmm, any rich boys or girls willing to buy mi a wallet?
i'm like how broke and i lost everything.
i have use up all my allowance fer da month.
2 more weeks b4 i get my allowance.
how m i going to survive?
buaha.
//runs

guess i'm da suay-est persn in da world.
i lost my wallet again.
so ish my ez link, I/C, used movie tickets and all da neo prints lor.
like wad da f***, i thot i put it in my bag.
hope dat someone will at least return mi my I/C.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrt!
was suppose to go out yest
stuck at hm in da end.
but went out wif my mum to get bras
and went to my uncle's chalet.
like how bored lar, so didnt stay dere.
going out wif giokhui later.
still worry abt my I/C and ezlink. ;/
//runs

seriously, i find tat english course got no use.
pon it again.
den da 8 of us [[[[[[ fei mao[fat cat/kahwah], faggot tong[zhou yin ge wang], gary, yingsheng, kaya, xl and my laogong[yp]]]]]]] went to sun plaza to take lunch.
crapping and luffing all da way.
went to cwp den back to sp den to np.
loitering ard.
went hm at ard 5 plus.

english oral tml.
im so nervous.
guess i will fail it again.
i mean its like i try to find point to say
but when i saw da examiner, nth came out of my mouth.
nobody understand how irritating ish tat.
argh.

they are celebrating renick's bdae tml.
shld i go?
//runs

went to watch SPIDY MAN 2 todae.
nth much to update abt ma life.
survey below:

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R

1) pierce your nose or tongue?
tongue.

2) be serious or be funny?
funnie.

3) drink whole or skim milk?
whole. whole milk taste nicer.

A R E Y O U

4) simple or complicated?
veri complicated.

D O Y O U P R E F E R

5) grey or gray?
grey.

6) colored or black-and-white photos?
coloured.

7) lust or love?
LOVE love Love lovE lOVe LovE.

8) sunrise or sunset?
sunset.

9) M&Ms or Skittles?
skittles.

10) rap or rock?
both?

11) staying up late or waking up early?
staying up late!

12) TV or radio?
radio :))

13) eating apples or oranges?
apples.

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y
14) Do you have a crush?
shld be no.

15) Who is it?
maybe its stef? -diaox-

D O Y O U P R E F E R

16) being hot or cold?
cold.

17) sun or moon?
moon :))

18) left or right?
right?

19) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?
1 bestest best friend.

20) sun or rain?
rain.

21) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
both.

22) green beans or carrots?
both.

23) boys or girlZ?
girls rule and boys drool.

24) low fat or fat free?
fat free. -diaox-

M I S C E L L A N E O U S

25) What is your biggest fear in the world?
heartaches and failling my olvl.

26) Kids or no kids?
da more da merrier. -duh- 2 ish enuff.

27) Cat or dog?
Dog.

28) Mustard or ketchup?
ketchup.

29) Hard cover books or soft cover books?
hard cover.

30) Newspaper or magazine?
magazines.

31) Wonder or amazement?
wonder.

32) Red car or white car?
white.

33) Happy and poor or sad and rich?
can i be happy and rich?

34) Singing or dancing?
singing.

35) Hugging or kissing?
hugging.

36) Corduroy or plain?
dunnoe.

37) Happy or sad?
rather be happi.

A B O U T Y O U

Full name?
wendalyn tay wei shan

Nicknames?
shan.

Names and ages of siblings?
weilong, 16.

Number of candles that appeared on your last
birthdae cake?
1 long one and 6 short ones.

Date that you regularly blow them out?
0106

Pets?
2 chinchillas, gigi and jojo [i didnt name dem, its da original owner who gave dem tat name, its kinda orh biang~]

chinese oral.
guess i did badly.
i have nv did well in oral, so, forget it.
again my day ish spoiled by ramesh.
and am flooded wif lotsa hw.
i'm still here, so i'm will NEVER gonna finish anything ;/

homework to do:
1. eng compo [hols asst]
2. eng func [ hols asst]
3. phy papaer [still hols asst]
4. geog [hols asst]
5. eng speech
6. eng summary
7. prepare ss test
8. tuition hw
9. bio ws
10. chem ws

see.
i will never make it.
-roll eyes-
//runs



i'm a lazy ass`

[basics]
name: wendalyn
piercings: 2.
tattoos: 0
height: 158cm
shoe size: 6.
hair color: gonna b black soon.
siblings: elder brother he ish twin wif mi. :)

[last..]
song you listened to: knocking on da heaven's door.
song that was stuck in your head: dao dai - jolin
cd/vcd you bought: tong ming zhuan ji - F.I.R
person you've talk on phone with: giokhui.

[do..]
you have a crush on someone: yea.
you wish you could live somewhere else: japan.
you believe in online dating: Nonsense.
others find you attractive: no.
you want more piercings: tongue piercing.
you like cleaning: I love da satisfaction.
you write in cursive or print: juz scribbling.

[for or against?]
long distance relationships: its crap.
using someone: Against.
suicide: Against.
killing people: Against.
gay relationships: neutral

[have you..]
ever cried over a girl: yesh.
ever cried over a boy: hell yes.
ever lied to someone: to almost everyone.
ever been in a fist fight: no.

[what..]
shampoo do you use: lux super rich.
are you scared of : heartaches and failling my os.

[number..]
of times I have been in love: ZERO
of times I have had my heart broken: 19847964726 tymes -duh-
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: over 10.
of times my name appear in the newspaper: 0

[favourite..]
7 letter word: wendaly.
cartoon: powerpuff girls and tweety.
cereal: nahx.
chewing gum: No idea.
color(s): Black, White, Pink, Blue.
day of week: Friday.
least fave day: sch days.
flower: Sunflower.
jewelry: -
special skills/talent: can slp fer 20 hrs?
summer/winter: winter.

[person who last..]
slept in your bed: Myself
saw you cry: months ago.
made you cry: i dun wanna rmb.
went to the movies with: wif kaya, ms oh and xl.
sent you an email: friendster?

[have you ever..]
gone out in public in your pyjamas: no.
kept a secret from everyone: yea.
cried during a movie: nah.
planned your week based on the TV Guide?: Stupid.
been on stage: yea.
wished you were the opposite sex: sometimes lar.

random
what time is it now: 1.39pm
apples or bananas: BANANAS!
blue or red: blue.
what are you gonna do after you finish this: bath.
wat was the last meal you ate: spag
are you bored: Absolutly.
last noise you heard: knocking on da heaven's door [windtruck ost].
last time you went out of state/province: a yr ago.

[friendship and love ]
do you believe in love at first sight: No.
do you want children one day and if so, how many: 2
most important thing to you in a friendship is: every single thing is important.

[other information]
thing you dislike about yourself the most: Laziness.
worst feeling in the world: Heartbroken.
shunned by someone: ?
who you love: my mom.
who you miss: all my friends.

sad.
its like i still cant get over da pain.
i juz cant.
:(

New Skin!!!

buaha. i changed da skin again.
always changing.
tish ish one of my old skin.
tink i prefer tish to my own one.
feeling shack.
got tonnes of hw and hol asst yet to finish.
dl da ost of windstruck!!!
goodie goodie. :) thx andy!
i'm thinking of sucide again.
its like i cant get over him, i cant do well in my studies.
i such a failure.
i cant see my future.
no point staying on da earth.

okie, back to today.
was walking to sch wif kaya and yp.
we was toking abt, ermmm, how to phrase it, ermm, putting da whole heart and sincerity to show u like someone.
we was telling yp tat sumone ish truly liking her.
den she sae: truly so wad?
mi: den wad? wad's matter most ish da heart tat ish real, rite?
yp: so wad la? if kw sae he truly like u, u will like him meh?
mi: i dun mind
kaya: eh. .....
yp: aiya, like tat person with ur whole hart oso no use de lar.
yp: u see, u so like *****, wad u get?
yp: i so like him [her ex], wad i get?
mi: ... [sadden]
yp ish rite somehow la. NO USE DE.

chinese listening wad quite okie lar, tricky lor.
went hm, quarrel wif my mum.
thot of running away frm hm or jump dwn frm 16 storey.
but nvm le now.
;/
//runs

You are BREAKING THE HABIT. ~I don't know what's
worth fighting for, or why I have to scream.
But now I have some clarity to show you what I
mean. I don't know how I got this way. I'll
never be alright.~


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ponned da dumb english course.
guess almost half of 4a3 ish doing it.
we pon right in front of those teachers. they were like all at da foyer.
its abt 8 or 9 of us.
took 811 wif kahwah and wenyi.
went hm and slp right away.
was suppose to have dinner wif my cousins and all, but my aunt left without mi.
she said i didnt inform her tat i wan to go wif her.
i was like: hur?
i called twice and she ish not at hm. how m i suppose to get her.
i'm too lazy to go alone.
decide to stay at home la.
in case da aunt blame mi or my mum quarrel wif dem or wad so ever la.
and i juz want to SLEEP.

im sick of my blogskin.
//runs

extract tish from kerine's blog, stay some time reading it.

Let me tell u what LOVE is..

For all you people who say, "I love
you" when you have no clue what love is exactly!!!
Something to ponder upon...

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?? -It
isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her/him -
It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?? -
It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's/he's there?? -
It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what everyone wants??
It isn't love, it?s LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her/him?
It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her/him?
It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
It isn't love, it's CHARITY.


Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when she's/he's strong?
Then it's LOVE.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her/him?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part of who she/he is?
Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her/him faithfully without regret??
Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life, your death??
Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why
do we love? Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long
for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is
such an addictive thing that even people who are
not having it wish to experience it and share it
with others as well.






as fer mi:
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?? -It
no.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her/him -
no.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?? -
no.

Do you want her because you know she's/he's there?? -
no.

Are you with her/him because it's what everyone wants??
no.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or held your hand?
-

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her/him?
-

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
a sure NO.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her/him?
ya.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only one you think of?
no.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
maybe.

Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?
of cos, when i see him cant get her.

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when she's/he's strong?
i wont cry, juz can understand his pain nia.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her/him?
-

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part of who she/he is?
yea

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her/him faithfully without regret??
of cos. i mean faithfully crush on him.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life, your death??
i would die fer him, i tell u. i reali reali reali reali will.


see, i do love him tat lil bits rite.
its not infactuation i can make sure.
but it isnt tat impt anymore ;/

he had chosen her, his love, his dream girl, his "wang xin lin"
and i'm juz a pimple face pig. ;/
ppl often says, when da guy choose da other girl instead of u, dun feel inferior abt urself. u are still a nice girl and he dunnoe wad he have miss out.
but i cant help blaming myself fer not pretty enuff. maybe they dun even see my inner beauty.
buahaha.
wait.
do i have any?

i'm not girlish enuff.
guess nobody will get used to a girlie weishan oso lar.
so i will remain me as myself fer now.
cant be bothered.
so wad if he dun like mi.
so wad if i dun have a guy.
it may be da most beautiful thing in world to fall in love wif da one u love
but i dun believe in love anymore.

monday. 2135

went to watch windstruck wif kaya, yp and xl.
veri touching.
so touching at da last part, all of us teared.
awwww
much touching den sassy girl.
reali like da movie, gonna catch it again. :)
spiderman 2 on wed wif much more ppl.
sch was okie.
quite like it lar, cos like finalli can bytch wif frenx.
unlike hols, hafta be alone.
alright, gonna do my homework now.
windstruck, anyone?
//runs


tuesday. 2203

shacked lar.
its like sch sch sch,
hw hw and more hw, when i haben even finish ma hols asst...
diaox...
chatted wif stef on msn.
she said: i juz told keith tat i wan to mit u.
okie.
she ish jobless til 1 july.
its like onli 3 days away, how can i get out?
so i tink can forget abt mitting, its always sae and nv mit.
got no chance to slip out lar.
hmmm, maybe i shall get her to watch windstruck wif mi. :)
onli if i'm able to get out ;/
la la la.
:) :) :) :) :)
//runs

wednesday
tired.

thursday 2058
alright.
chem was like fer 3 hrs?
and i dun understand even a tiny bits.
hell.
lazy to blog lar.
stef will have no tyme to mit mi from today onwards ;/
she start werking le.
ha.
guess its will be next yr if we gonna mit.
adrian got into ns le.
no more irc mates le ;/
cant even find him during weekends.
school ish getting on find lar. juz tat reali got losta homework.
sometimes i'm juz so envy of my pri sch mates, they are juz so pretty. and they got bf and blah blah blah.
and my life lish like so empty, and i'm not pretty.
okie, rubbish.
//runs


oh, ppl tag mi, juz click on da "i love tattoos" thing :)

currently pia-ing my homework.
its kinda bored, so i'm here again.
lol.
guess i nv gonna make it fer my Os.
k lar. juz to do some changes and surf da friendster.
bye lo~
//runs

okie. new skin.
did myself.
my own skin :)
took away da tadboard.
click i love t a t t o o s to drop mi a msg :)
tish ish da last tyme i;m blogging fer tish month.
hopefully u ppl will see mi less online.
cos i wan to study hard le.
i dun wanna fail my O lar.
haha.
kk.
saw mr sim chee bye at chong pang juz now. sooooo suay.;/
//runs

MISSING IN ACTION.

woohooo...
went out to celebrate kaya's bdae.
wif kahwah, huilin, gwenyth, sherwin, kaya, my laogong[yp] and xueyanie.
was luffing all da way wif our lame joke and stuff.
we were onli at causeway point.
had pizza.
decide to take some neos.
but da shop was under some renovation till 4.
so hang ard outside da shop cos we got nth to do.
start crapping again.

saw my goodie sista jo outside da neoprint shop.

den we wait until sian le
den we went to check da time slot for 'mean girls'.
but da show haben even start showing on cinema.
walking back to da neo shop,
by den onli left mi, my laogong , kaya and gwenyth.

saw my bestest best fren in pri sch; NINA, on da way.
we was waving happily to each other.
:) happie.
but didnt have da chance to tok.
i miss her soooo sooo soooooooo much.
but i'm happi enuff to see her lar.
its like yrs since i last seen her.

went to shop ard after taking da neos.
den go hm le lor.

my uncle want to bring da few kids to seoul garden.
how pig i m.
hafta eat again.
diaox...
forget it, i will nv slim down.

hmmmmmmm
after xueyanie,my laogong,gwenyth and all ppl kept telling mi to study.
i decide to study bahx. ;/
i juz wanna pass my Os.
i will TRY to work hard lar hur.
TRY.
shall have a good start tml,
shall go to da english course will positive attitude.
seeing tat ah beng yuhchu sooooooo wanting to learn,
makes mi stress sia.
i better learn something too. :)
shall do a lil of my hol asst lata.
even kahwah did da hw, how can i not do?

hmmmm.
wad a long entry,
shall not post my survey den;/
//runs

went to watch around the world in 80 days
not veri nice, but kinda funnie.
was luffing my arse off inside da cinema.
got hm at abt 10 plus.
kinda shag.
haben do any of my hols asst.,
nor my tuition homework.
gonna have tuition tml.
sianed.
gonna get a pack of cig tml.
shld i?
or shld i not?
miss da feel of it.
but i'm like totalli broke.
somebody juz spare mi one stick and i'll be grateful enuff. ;/
alright.
shall get some rest
and start scribbling sth fer my tuition hw.
//runs




i nid love. :)

basicalli i have lost interest in everything in ma life.
not even my fav mag [teenage] get mi interested.
not even da blogs.
dun even nid to mention ach and stuff.

i hate my face,
i hate my body.
i'm a fucking freak.
y m i so ugly.
ppl say:
"its okie to be ugly, but u must have a kind heart."
but i'm behaving like a, ermmm, barbaric person.
scolding valgurity and sits wif my leg wide open like nobody business.
tish ish crazy.
but i guess dat sentence ish wrong.
as long as u are ugly, almost evey doors closes can.
onli those kind soouls ish kind enuff to be ur frenx.

i wish i can be more girlie.
but i so used to be boylish.
i mixed wif boys when i join da swimming team, i hafta folow my bro.
i join da boy cousin, cos my bro wana play wrestlin wif him.
i hafta join my bro in eveything, if not i might be alone.
like wad da hell.
i feel like i'm a freak.
if onli i was born as a guy.
argh.
sometimes i wonder if my mum have give mi da wrong gender,
or da god play a fool wif mi.
i guess i can be a good guy, at least better den my bro, if i'm born as a guy.
but its like, i still get emontional juz like girls.
all tish shit ish driving mi crazy.
i'm so confuse over myself lar.
dun even noe which gender i like. lol.

wad's wrong wif mi?
i dunnoe myself anymore.









i wish i was born as a guy, provided no nid to go ns lar. lol.

i'm sian of blogging alreadi.
i have nth to blog.
//runs

deleted 2 previous post.
its like so bo liao.
b o r e d.

okie.
i reali like friendster.
cos i can almost all my long lost frenx. :D
reali reali long lost sia.

nth to say le lar.
//runs

did i mention tat my bathroom's door ish spoiled?
its e one and only bathroom. ;/
my dear brother break da thing lar.
now i have to let everyone in da hse noe dat i'm bathing b4 i get into da bath room.
so troublesome.

did some quizzes cos im b o r e d.
bored until i wan to cry le.
-scream-
okie. i nid a cigg to calm myself dwn.
imma take a penknife and cut myself or jump dowm fr 16 floors.
i tell u, i'm reali reali reali b o r e d.
i dunnoe.
i feel real down.
juz wanna scream, jump, shout, whine, wadever.
sth ish not right.
i dunoe wad went wrong.
juz sth wrong in myself.
i can juz slap myself to death liaox.
not gonna type anymore if not all da f word will juz flew out.
gtg ya.
buaix.
//runs

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::15 Random Favorites::
1: Cash.
2: All My Friends.
3: Avril Lavigne.
4: Huang Yi Da.
5: Energy.
6: Ciggs.
7: Alcohol.
8: Reading Blogs.
9: Powerpuff Girls.
10: Sleeps.
11: Music.
12: Arts.
13: Punk rock.
14: ella [S.H.E]
15: Dao Dai [a song]

::14 Favorite Foods::
1: SUSHI.
2: Strawberry shortcake.
3: cheesecake.
4: Donut.
5: Cheesy food.
6: Ice Lemon Tea.
7: Good Pizza.
8: Egg Yokes.
9: soya milk.
10: lemon barley.
11: coffee.
12: Pasta.
13: banana.
14: strawyberry.

::13 Most Watched Shows::
1: Advertisments.
2: Temptation Island.
3: da Bachelor.
4: Taiwan variety show.
5: da Bachelor2.
6: da Bachelorette.
7: da Bachelor.[now on channel 5]
8: hongkong seriel.
9: channel u variety show.
10: ou xiang ju.
11: arts and crafts stuff tat shown on kids central.
12: those tamil or bollywood show.
13: powerpuff girls.

::12 Good Bands in your Opinion::
1: Blink 182.
2: linkin park.
3: .
4: .
5: .
6: .
7: .
8: .
9: .
10: .
11: .
12: -o well i noe nth abt bands-

::11 Memories::
1: Good Ol` days.
2: Kindergarden days.
3: Pri sch days.
4: Sec4 days.
5: sports carnival day wif 4a3.
6: mahjong days @ dad-in-law hse, fag hse n blah blah.
7: stef-fone-calls days.
8: chatting-wif-keith days.
9: act gangster days.
10: ciggs days.
11: pon class day.

::10 Close Friends::
1: TEy GIOk HUi
2: Oh Yuan Ping
3: Jane Koh Xiao Ling n Tan Kai Yan
4: Koh Kah Wah, Moger, Fag tong n not forgetting damien dad-in-law.
5: Michelle Zheng PeiYi n Grace Lai KitMun
6: Rachel Tan Xin Hui
7: Gen and HuiLin
8: Josephine Tan Xiao Hui
9: Neo Bing Yun, Yik JiaLi n Yeo Yee Ching :)
10: Kerine? [guess we sort of tok alot on da tagboard]

::09 Things you're looking forward to::
1: school
2: clubbing fer da first time ;p
3: dec hols.
4: poly life
5: miting stef
6: more piercing.
7: tongue piercing.
8: mit my mr rite/ms rite
9: being loved.

::08 Things you wear daily::
1: bra.
2: panty.
3: school uniform.
4: ear sticks.
5: shorts.
6: t-shirt.
7: sch-shoes.
8: socks.

::07 Things That Annoy You::
1: Mr Botak Low Eng Kee.
2: morning assembly.
3: School.
4: PMS.
5: homework.
6: ppl who look down on/scold homo.
7: my forgetfulness.

::06 Things You Touch Everyday::
1: my hair.
2: my face.
3: my phone.
4: my bed.
5: my com.
6: my toothbrush.

::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::
1: my sassy girl.
2: twins effect.
3: scary movie3
4: eye2.
5: office's ghost.

::04 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys::
1: barbie.
2: polly pocket.
3: hot wheels.
4: transformer

::03 People You Have Kissed::
1: mum.
2: dad.
3: babies.

::02 Of Your Favorite Songs::
1: jay chou - an jing
2: s.h.e - lian ren wei man

::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::
1: still waiting fer tat person to come into my life.

went to have pizza in da evening wif those lil cousin.
we was ordering da pizza.
i must sae we are veri troblesome cos we cant made up our mind.
den da stupid manager roll his eyes and give those fuck up face to his employee to show tat he ish irritated by us.
we saw it.
he face ish reali kuku i tell u.
i feel like kicking his arse and juz dun order any pizza.
but wad can we do? we are onli kids.

as we sit down and enjoy da pizza.
tat stupid manager got into action again.
dere ish dis poor retarded guy working in da pizza hut and kfc thing. he was unable to walk properly.
tat stupid manager imitate how he walk. with his butt sicking up in da air.
my bro told mi.
we was like: fuck da manager can.
so du lan.
reali feel like crushing his kuku face nor.
dot dot dot.

gotta bring da 2 kids to woodland library tml. ;/
sunday going swiming wif dem.
so guai ah nowadays.

went out last nite at 12.
rachel ish alil troubled whether to break up or not.
thou i hate her bf to core, i still dun encourage her to break nor.
but dunno how she feel.
...
//runs

argh.
start tuition again.
ms ang juz love to dig out my secrets.
duhx.
she give mi a compo : my secrets.
she noe quite a no. of things plus veri personal stuff.
imma kill her if she says anything.
and she gave mi lotsa homework.
-_____________-
how m i going to finish everything and hols assignment?
dotx.
//runs



have i reali threw everything behind?

nono. i dun like fag anymore.
dun get da wrong idea.
reali.
da feeling ish already dead long ago.
i dun feel hurt anymore.
juz a lil sad tat we are far apart now.
thou we are frenx, but seems tat ermmm, not as close.
nvm lar.
//runs



its juz another stupid crush. ;/

how do i sat goodbye to someone i never had.
why do tears fall fer someone who was never mine.
why izzit that i miss someone i was never with.
why do i love someone whose love can never be mine.

got tis msg some time ago.
i mean long itme ago.
its still in my fone.
sent by fag.
somehow da msg juz "apply" to mi.
juz post it cos i've got nth to blog lar.
gtg
-wave gdbye-

pon-ed geog again.
juz go sch and hand in da files nia.
den went home le.
so bo liao de.
tink not going da SAF thing le.
gwenyth not in spore, xl not going, i dun wan to go alone. ;/
forget it.
sianed.
maybe going town later. ;/
//runs

the friend who lives nearest to you
- kitmum-cum-grace we lives on da same block :)

the friend you've known longest
- kitmum too. as in we still stay in contact. abt 7 yrs le.

the friend who was your enemy before
- oh well. guess dun have bahx? i dun rmb.

the friend you usually go shopping with
- giokhui le. we've got no choice ma. lol.

the friend you go clubbing with
- i have nv gone clubbing b4.

the friend you usually tell your problems to
- giokhui, myself, kaya or xiaoling, gary oso can, sometimes ish mic lor. and jo too.

the friend you usually meet for meals
- ermmm. almost all da sch frenx lar. ppl like ms oh, kaya and xl lor.

the friend you sing with
- tat's fer sure ish L.C.S [lim chian song]

the friend you last met
- ehx. erm.

the friend you last talked to
- giokhui

the friend you last talked to on the phone
- ronald.

the friend you last smsed
- yeeching

the friend you hugged
- long time nv hug fren le

the friend you last went out with
- kaiyan and xiaoling bahx

the friend you last cried with
- giokhui. kahwah and gary[on fone]. becos of tat faggot thing.

the friend you last said sorry to
- dun rmb le.

the friend you are thinking of right now
- nobody

the friend you can't wait to see
- da a3s

the friend whose presence you dearly miss
- nina. lost in contact so long le. oso dunnoe where she die to. ;p

i promise tish will be my permenant skin.
promise.
i like tish skin. :)
survey again.
hmmm, got to noe a new net fren.
got to noe him becos someone pass my no. ard in irc.
den start to sms bah.
dun tink ish gd to tok to him too much. ;/
most guys in irc are most likely to be despo or wad. despo fer sex or stead lor.

its been quite some time since i blog eh.
got nth to blog lar.
cos i'm too b o r e d. lol.

plan fer da week
mon : go kfc wif cousins
tues: geog lesson
wed : tuition
thur: SAF concert
fri : rot at hm
sat : rot at hm
sun : rot at hm

hmmm. i reali have no time fer my holiday homework.
rotting ish my fav pasttime.
i can reali rot lor. i mean i can stay up to 3 in da morning juz staring at my celling.
i nid a life.
but i can get out of my dummy hse sometimes.
i dunnoe lar.
if this goes on, i will juz fail my os wif seven f9. can even forget abt taking it.
hope i got da mood to study on monday lar.
-pray hard- [to which ever god, i dun reali have religion]
//runs



i'm reali reali b o r e d.

.::+:LASTs:+::..

last person u kissed: nobody.

last cigarette: few days ago. salem, menthol

last good cry: a month ago too.

last library book checked out: 35000 names.

last movie seen: harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban.

last book read: 35000 names

last curse word uttered: fuck

last beverage drank: pepsi

last food consumed: pizza

last phone call: ronald

last tv show watched: golden melody award

last shoes worn: slipper

last cd played: -

last item bought: pizza

last downloaded: nth

last disappointment: nth

last soda drank: -

last thing handwritten: take down da cost of da pizza

last word spoken: bu yao [dun wan]

last sleep: last nite at 3am.

last weird encounter: -

last ice cream eaten: i dun rmb

last amused: cant rmb

last time trippin on drugs?: never

last time in love: thousand yrs ago. lol. means no have.

last time hugged: -

last time scolded: juz now.

last chair sat in: da chair in front of da com.

last time lipstick used: lipice?

last shirt worn: op tshirt

last poster looked at: avril lavigne

..::+:AGOs:+::..

1 MINUTE AGO: typing tish.

1 HOUR AGO: watching tv

1 DAY AGO: staring at celling

1 WEEK AGO: sch sch sch!

1 YEAR AGO: sec3

..::+:QUESTIONs:+::..

1. What do you most like about your body?
eye brows, it juz look as if it was artificial. ;/ i swear tat i have nv do anything to it.

2. And least?
whole self

3. How many fillings do you have?
none..

4. Do you think you're good looking/beautiful?
no.

5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking/beautiful?
never.

..::+:FIRSTS:+::..

First job: nv work before.

First screen name: weishan.

First funeral: great grandmother.

First pet: goldfish.

First piercing/tattoo: ear holes. at 13.

First credit card: haben got one.

First Kiss: -

First one that mattered: ?

First love: kelvin [first crush]

First enemy: darren [but become frenx lata]

First concert: nv been to concert b4.

survey again.
i'm reali b o r e d.
noe wad?
i'm all alone at home, ;/

1. who do u miss now?
==>nobody.

2. who do u want to talk now?
==>juz anybody. i'm alone.

3. who do u think now?
==>nobody.

4. who do u think ur best best bestfriends?
==>da 4a3s who i always mix wif. my sistas mich, grace, chel and jo.

5. who do u think will betray u?
==>hur hur.

6. who do u think u hate?
==>oh. i dun usualli hate ppl.

7. who do u think hate u?
==>ronald and those who hate my dumb ass bytchy attitude.

8. who is the last person u called?
==>mum.

9. who is the last boring person u talked to?
==>my aunts

10. who do u want to meet?
==>da rite one who suppose to come into my life. and stef.

11. when is the last time u shop?
=>today

12. when is the last time u play internet?
==>naw.

13. when is your bdae?
==>1st of june.

14. when is ur fav. timing?
==>late nitex.

15.when is ur fav. month?
==>months wif long hols.

16. what is ur name?
==>Tay Wei Shan. so yuckie can.

17. what is ur fav. nick name?
==>blueyakult, babysun.

18. what is ur fav. word?
==>fuck.

19. what discribe u most?
==>dumb ass lazy bytchy bytch.

20. what do u hate to eat?
==>i love to eat everything.

21. what do u like to eat?
==>anything tat ish edible.

22. what do u like to buy?
==> yida's, ocean's cd.

23. what is ur worst nightmare?
==>when its real.

24. what is ur fav. dream?
==>there was once i dreamt that we finalli get together.

25. what is ur fav. sweet?
==>blahx. juz sweets

26. what is ur fav. snack?
==>hmmmm. strawberry.

27. what is ur fav. color?
==>greenx.

28. what is ur fav. instrument?
==>piano? drums.

29. what is ur fav. cloth?
==>black fucking tshirts.

30. what is ur fav. bag?
==>no particular. feel like it den i'll buy it.

31. why do u fill this bulletin?
==>cos i'm B O R E D

32. why do u usually cry?
==>heartaches. quarrel wif family. depress.

33. Are u bored?? Why?
==>yes i'm bored. cos i'm sooo single and nobody entertain mi.

34. why do u join friendster?
==>cos most ppl ish doing it.

35. are u in love??? why??
==>no. cos i haben mit da rite one. juz nobody love mi can. ;/

36. how u like someone?
==>feeling. i juz love the way tat person ishx.

37. how u hate someone?
==>oh. juz scold tat person: fuck off.

38. how u eat pizza??
==>eat the crust first den the middle part.

39. how u spend ur weekend?
==>stay home and shake leg. use net or chat fone.

40. how do u show ur love?
==>hur. show concern? giv a hug.

new skin.
changing so often la. lol.
hope all of u love it. :)

::monday 7 june::
went out wif gen, huilin and gwenyth[giokhui larh][her christ name ish fer free so juz call her tat.]
towning. again.
bought some stuff.
took neos
lol.
den went hm.
slack like shit.
uploaded da pic. under neoprints.

joke of da day:
i was supose to mit gen, huilin and gwenyth fer towning.
i'm da first to reach.
huilin came in later.
den she ask mi:
huilin: u and weishan stay near to each other rite?
weishan: huh?
huilin: u and weishan stay near to each other rite?
weishan: -blur-
huilin: u and weishan stay near to each other rite?
weishan: i m weishan ma.
huilin: hahahahaha. ya hor.
she was suppose to sae giokhui but she sae weishan instead.
lol.

::tuesday 8 june::
watched harry potter wif giokhui.
ermm.. ish nice larh.
but no chinese subtitle, some part i dun understand lor.
sch tml.
gotta do geog hw larhx. ;/
yea yea yea. not much to blog today.
i bought f.i.r album le. nice! -thumbs up- :)
//runs

1. NAME:
weishan.

2. DO YOU THINK YOU'RE NORMAL:
kinda.

3. DO PEOPLE FIND YOU STRANGE:
how would i noe? maybe?

4. DO YOU SING A LOT:
onli sing when i'm wif l.c.s in class.
sings alot at hm.
guess my bro suffered alot. ;/

6. DO YOU BACKSTAB:
i dont backstab.
i'm juz bitching.

7. ARE YOU A GOOD FRIEND:
erm, shld be ;p buahaha.
well, being bhb.
ask my frenx bahx.

8. ARE YOU YOUNG:
quite.
soon i will be old.
16 already can.

10.EVER BEEN A LEADER OF SOMETHING:
yeah. some project grp in pri4.

11.EVER KILLED A LIVING CREATURE:
ants, bugs.

12.LAST ODD THING DONE:


13.DO YOU WEAR MAKE-UP:
nope.

14.DO YOU REBEL:
do i?

15.EVER STARTED A FIRE:
never.

16.DO YOU THINK YOU'RE EVIL:
nope. not evil.

17.DO YOU LIKE LYING:
yesh.
to hide things.
fer some damn reasons i have to.

18.DO YOU REGRET:
yesh.
or rather, i'm guilty

20.DO PEOPLE HATE YOU:
some i tink.

21.DO YOU HATE PEOPLE:
not reali.
unless tat person irritates mi alot.

22.CAN YOU KILL SOMEBODY:
i will if i go crazy someday.
my bro will be my first target. :)

23.DO YOU CUT YOURSELF?:
hell yes.
but its onli on my skin.
da pain kills can.
try it.

24.EVER TASTED BLOOD:
yup.
when my mouth bleeds.

25.DO YOU CARE WHAT OTHERS MAY THINK OF YOU?:
yea.
but i may not change.

26.EVER DONE ANYTHING OCCULT:
?

27.ARE YOU GOTHIC:
?

28.DO YOU SMOKE:
rarely.
i'm so guai.

29.CONSUME DRUGS:
the last thing on earth i'd ever do.

30.WHAT DO YOU WEAR:
clothes la.

31.YOUR SKIN COLOR:
hur.

32.DO YOU LIKE THE SUN:
sort of.
its beta without da heat.

34.HOW DOES GRIEF FEEL:
hur?

37.YOUR LISTENING TO:
Avril Lavigne: Fall To Pieces

38.DO HATE YOURSELF:
YES YES. HELL YES.
i hate myself!

39.DID THIS QUIZ MAKE SENSE:
quite crappy lar.
i've done so many le.
who cares.

40.PARTING WORDS:
oh well. happi hols.

lalala.
went to sun plaza 's library wif giokhui after lesson.
looks fer names books.
i gonna get myself an english name. :)
abit duhx larh. but guess english name ish better to be rmb.
we kept luffing as we look thru. some names were too special larh.
den went hm.
first thing i do ish sleep.
from 2 to 9 i feel tat i'm so dead.
was waken up by hunger.
went to have dinner myself ;/
slacking here again.
ok, here's some name i'm considering abt using it:
1. anabel
2. wendalyn
3. terelyn
4. mavis
5. maxine
6. christabel
still looking thru da books.
gib mi some suggestion?
//runs

new hair.
fucking regrets.
:(
upload da pic of it on me,myself and i
-whine-
oh well. it will grow again ;/
//run

duhx.
back.
losta stuff happened.
kaya cheer up k. take great care of urself. dun tink too much. dun starve urself hor. :)
blackie wont get to see tish. can forget abt cheering him up here. ;/
well. life was okie.
its da hols.
and i gonna eat like pig and fat like shit.
was suppose to go on diet.
but. haix. duhx. lalala.
stef called yest!!! :)
:)
:)
:)
:)
:)
:)
i'm juz hapi.
have a gd luff lar. but as usual we got nth much to chat anymore. ;/
was toking abt fantasia's mouth.
she sae her lips quite thick. den look like some fish.
bad larh her.
den she go watch metoer garden le. :/
she and joanne end le and she's quite sad abt it.
i mean they ended da thing long ago.
oh well juz hope she will cheer up.
heard tat keith ish doing fine and getting back to sch.
hmmm. gonna mit dem soon larhx.
hope so.
and ya.
adrian[da net fren] ish going to NS.
fuck shit can.
and maybe he gonna cancel his hp.
haix.
hope to mit him b4 he ish gone.
its like how many yrs le can.
its either i cant or he cant.
maybe its juz all fated bahx. ;/
argh.
today pon el course larhx.
its like boring. ms oh didnt go fer da course too.
went to bio lesson.
hols ish b o r i n g can
eat slp shit tv com. wad's new?
//runs



-______________-

new foto added :)

oh fuck.
da hacker ish scaring mi.
someone ish using my name. my hp.
on irc.
passing ard.
losta ppl ish calling mi.
i'm scared.
how?

its update time!
oh. yest was great.
losta msg came in yea :)
thx to all :D


ytd.
i bought a cake to celebrate wif my 4 sistas.
we went to da playground down stair.
they wanted to drop a water bomb on mi. but tat dumb rachel drop it on herself b4 i came hm.
den they went to get eggs.
i knew they were up to sth.
so i was veri careful abt everything.
happily singing songs and making wishes.
juz as i was makingda veri last wish.
PIAK!
rachel smash a egg on my head.
oh well.
drink another egg somemore.
cute da cake.let them eat. and went hm to bath.
this is not da end.
went to my hm.
happily taking foto.
play and chat fer long time.
a big reunion. finalli.
at da end of my bdae, we went to da coffeshop downstair.
treat them drinks lar.
den went hm.
quite fun lar. finalli da 5 bytches get together.
but kinda sad.
da 1 boy. my dearest god bro happily forget abt my bdae.
usualli da 6.
he hapily forget can.
guess he alreadi grows up. who wan to mix wif girls.
;/
nvm.


today.
went out wif my cousins.
went town.
juz walk ard.
took neos. :)
met mic at nite.
chat.
den went back hm.
cant join my 2 bytches tml ;/
-whine-
//runs

da two bytch [chel and mic]gave mi a suprise ytd.
they called at 12.
"happi birthday!!!" and slam da fone.
den there ish door bell.
'ding dong' 'ding dong' x 100
knock da door so hard like shit.
'bang bang bang' x 50
den i came out fr da rm.
open da door.
saw da two bytch stand at da side of my doorstep.
so suprise sehx.
thot nobody will come.
den we went down to find another girl.
as usual she's asleep.
so we and mic's darl went to playground and slack fer awhile.
reach hm at 1.
nobody noes i sneaked out last nite. -cheers-
*uploaded pic of their present.
lotx of hapi birthday msg last nite.
thanks everybody.
love ya all.
//runs





he didnt wish mi.;/

//Series one -
Name: weishan.
Current Location: mum's rm.
Hair Color: black?
Righty or Lefty: righty.
Zodiac Sign: gemini.
Innie or Outtie: both.


// Series two - describe
The shoes you wore today: sch shoes
Your hair: veri brown.
Your eyes: veri small.
Your weakness: rough, valgur, hot temper.
Your fears: heartaches.
Your perfect pizza: wif losta cheese.

// Series three - what is
Your most overused phrase on MSN/AIM: haha lor.
The first feature you notice in the opposite (or same) sex: clean teeth. small eyes. slim n tall.
Your best physical features: eyebrows.
Your usual bedtime: 12
Your greatest accomplishment: -
Your best memory: -blank-

// Series four - do you
Smoke: yesh. m a part time smoker.
Cuss: wad's tat?
Sing well: nahx. i sound like a bytch ;p
Take a shower everyday: yup.
Like high school: not reali.
Want to get married: maybe not.
Believe in yourself: no.
Get motion sickness: hur?
Think you're attractive: no.
Think you're a health freak: yesh.
Like thunderstorms: no.

// Series five - in the past month, did/have you
Drank alcohol: no.
Smoked: guess so.
Done a drug: no.
Made Out: no.
Go on a date: no.
Go to the mall: yesh.
Been on stage: no.
Been dumped: no.
Gone skating: no.
Made homemade cookies: no.
Been in love: no.
Stolen anything: no.

// Series six - have you ever?
Played a game that required removal of clothing: nono.
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: never.
Been caught "doing something": no la.
Been called a tease: no.
Gotten beaten up: no.
Shoplifted: never.
Changed who you were to fit in: tried. but failed.

// Series seven - the future
Age you hope to be married: 21,22
Numbers and names of children: 3
What age do you want to die: 80?
What do you want to be when you grow up: designer

// Series eight - currently
Current clothes: tshirt wif garfield printed -childish lar-
Current mood: -_______-
Current taste: -blank-
Current Smell: ciggs frm my dad
Current favourite groups: F.I.R
Current worry: how m i going to spend my jun hols.

oh. chinese o ishx over.
da papers all quite okie la.
m afraid wad will be my result.
i dun wanna cry ahx.
yeah yeah yeah!
i got moi veri first bdae present of da year.
buahahaha.
its frm kimberly golden eunice lee hui lin.
buahahaha.
thanks girl. i love tat present. :)
dad got a new cam.
finalli a digi cam.
sony: cyber-shot.
not da model i wan lehx.
but anyway its not fer mi. its fer his job. ;/
nvm.
shall stop being crappy.
//runs

mugging fer chinese os.

da feeling suddenly came to mi:
i thot i'll put him in my heart till da end of my life.
i thot i would feel da pain fer long.
i thot i would love him forever.
i thot he will be touched one day.
i thot he would love mi some day.
i thot my love will be returned.
i thot.

but naw.
he ish almost out of my heart.
i no longer feel much pain.
i dun love him anymore.
he was nv touched.
he will never love mi.
my love was never returned.

yet.
i still feel sad.
i still cry.
i miss da good ol' days.
i wish tat all these has nv happen.
why?

but i noe.
all ish fated.
we were meant to mit.
and onli meant to be frenx.

and.
i will nv forget da day.
da day when he tell mi all those shit.
da day when i noe he will nv be mine anymore.
da day.
:(
//runs



i'm a silly bytch.

went to woodland library wif my mic and chel.
chel was glued to her darl.
so mic and mi study ourselves.
i did study.
reali hope tat i can do well.
so sianx ahx.
gonna start my diet on da 2nd of june.
my bdae ish approaching and guess wad?
i still have to plan it myself wif giokhui.
wad a big surprise. -roll eyes-
might as well forget abt everything.
fuck can.
read this : fuck
mum and dad took leave on tat day.
mic and chel sae wanna bring mi go clubbing.
CLUBBING. bring mi go some more.
i'm so mountian tortoise.
nerd ehx. nv go clubbing b4.
buahaha.
wonder if i'm allow to stay out late. ;/
//runs




i hate my boobs

You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.


Which kind of candy are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Heart of Glass


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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went to sch wif mum.
chua sae i'm da worst.
worst den anyone in da class.
got nth to sae.
guess i have gib up on my studies.
i wan to study hard,
but juz juz dun have da hart yea.
wadever.
//runs

3 more days to chi o
m still here slacking.
mum will be going to sch lata.
-sigh-
i still gt no mood.
slack ish all i can do now.
-sigh-
i'm down.
no reason.
//runs

LAYER ONE: What is your..?
-- Name: weishan
-- Birth date: 010688
-- Birthplace: thomson medical center
-- Current Location: mum's rm.
-- Eye Color: black.
-- Hair Color: redishx ah.
-- Height: 168/9
-- Right handed or Left handed: right handed.

LAYER TWO:
-- Heritage: hur?
-- Weakness: veri vulgur, bad temper.
-- Biggest fears: heartaches.
-- Your perfect pizza: wif lotsa cheese.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: study design in tp and be a designer.

LAYER THREE: Your…?
-- Most overused phrase(s): chee bye la. [kw told mi de]
-- Thoughts first waking up: can i dun go sch.
-- Best physical feature: eyebrows.
-- Usual bedtime: abt 12.
-- Most missed memory: pri sch days. days wif yakult. candy's bdae wif kerine and da bunch of frenx.

LAYER FOUR: Preferences..?
-- Pepsi or Coke: coke.
-- McDonald's or Burger King: BK.
-- Single or group dates: group dates.
-- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: lipton Iced Tea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: both.
-- Cappuccino or Latte: Latte.

LAYER FIVE: Do you…?
-- Smoke: yesh. i'm a part time smoker. onli smoke when dere's free cigs. lol.
-- Sing : seldom.
-- Take a shower every day: at least 2 times a day.
-- Have a crush(es): not reali la.
-- Do you think you've been in love: nope.
-- Like high school: duhx. i hate school.
-- Want to get married: no.
-- Believe in yourself: never.
-- Get motion sickness: hur?
-- Think you're attractive: never lax.
-- Think you're a health freak: yup.
-- Get along with your parents: soso.
-- Like thunderstorms: nope.
-- Play an instrument: nahx.

LAYER SIX: In the past month, you’ve…?
-- Drank alcohol: nope.
-- Gone on a date: nahx.
-- Gone to the mall: yup.
-- Eaten sushi: ya.
-- Been on stage: nahx.
-- Been dumped: nope.
-- Gone skating: no.
-- Shoplifted: will never do it.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nono.

LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 21
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 to 3 :)
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: dunnoe lehx.
-- How do you want to die: peacefully.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? DESIGNER.

LAYER NINE: In a girl/boy, you would want…?
-- Best eye color: brown.
-- Best hair color: anything.
-- Short or long hair: anything lor.
-- Height: must be at less 10 cm taller den mi.
-- Weight: normal wt.
-- Best first date location: dunnoe.

LAYER TEN: List the number of:
-- Drugs taken illegally: 0
-- People I trust with my life: lotsa.
-- CDs that I own: 4 energy's cd n many others
-- Piercings: 2
-- Tattoos: 0
-- Times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 0 .
-- Scars on my body: >20
-- Things in my past that I regret: lotx

i'm here.
god damn shit.
i'm da second in class. second last.
da 39th.
cool eh.
first time i'm quite last.
tat's scares mi.
badly.
wad have i become.
juz a lump of shit.
;/
//runs

naw i recieved more den 10 msg from da icq.
well tat idiot claim tat he ish a hacker.
i didnt bother to reply.
fuck it.
i didnt left any of my no. online.
so how he hack mi?
god noes. -roll eyes-
fuck fuck fuck.

hey everybody.
plish remove da www. of any blogspot diary links.
wif da www. ppl cant view da links.
:)

-screams-
i dunnoe who da heck kept calling my hp.
private no. .
tat person called and give mi more den 20 miss call.
once i pick up, that person will put down.
fuck it.-point middle finger-
waste $0.80 fer picking up.
nobody ans. tat pperson juz put down.
it still ringing naw.
hey bloody idiot.
if u gt nth to do. plish fist fuck ur own ass.
stop pestering mi.
if u got and thing impt to tell mi, juz speak.
if not, plish fuck off.
private no. somemore.
keep hanging it. den it will call back in 5 mins.
den that person call and put down.
call and put down.
call and put down.
call and put down.
call and put down.
call and put down.
call and put down x 100 times
-screams-
its irritating.
i have put it in silent mode.
let's see how many miss call tat person can give mi.
fuck tat person.

EL carnival.
quite fun la.
watched maid in manhattan. funni and sweet.
shld have stay at hm la.
so tired.
have to revise.
//runs




i'm fine.

so sad.
have been observing my grandpa while i was in my grandparents hse.
it sadden mi.
poor old man.
he ish quiet. sitting alone.
he tried to communicate wif da kids. nobody bothers to ans him.
when he smoked, everyone will start to sae tish and tat.
even da kids do it.
he was asked to smoke at da kitchen.
da onli place i can find him now ish da kitchen or his rm.
no long in da living rm. not anywhere else.
:(
mi and my bro used to respect him sooo much
he ish a different old man now.
he used to have every say.
now. ppl even shout at him. even da kids.
wonder wad's wrong wif da ppl dere.
if i have a say i will kick all their ass.
they are teaching da wrong things to da kids. :(
i mean they are my relatives and i shldnt sae much.
but while i look at my grandpa. i look into his eyes.
he ish sad. :(
he spoke softly.
timid.
didnt wad to do. cos its seems that he ish always at fault.
even switching on da fan will get scolded.
wad the world have become.
i got no topic to tok to him. if not i will tok to him.
-sigh-
poor grandpa.
he ish so old now. left wif lil time on earth.
yet he feels no love.
everybody will be crying IF he ish gone.
wad's the point.
shld love him now. not lata.
dun understand wad they are thinking.
all my grandpa can do now ish complain to my dad.
and my dad?
dont dare to say a thing.
he didnt mention a thing.
or he juz dun wanna kick a big fuss? ;/
lol.
//runs

cramps cramps and more cramps!!!
its killing mi!!!

oh ya. ytd i was walking to my mum rm.
and *bang*
i knock my elbow onto my da wall. -duhx-
its still hurt now.
i dun have blueblack.
but its da bone or nerve or wad that ish in pain. ;/
pain! pain! pain!
PMS somemore.
was luffing at ms oh de pms ytd. den i got it last nite.
-whine-
i thot my period wld be late.
but it was on time fer da first time. ;/
da veri first time.
the cramps ish down til my legs.
sucks sucks sucks

not much lesson today.
play some games. and slack.
tuti once told mi:
feeling shag = feeling of having sex.
sth like tat.
buahahaha.
shall not use tat word again. :D
//runs




miss da good old days

hey. i bought Avril's new album!!!!
she ish juz soooo cool and punkie :)
dere ish a free poster. [da advertisement said so.] but....
its folded into squares and stuff in da packing.
arghhhhh!!!!!
when i open da poster. i cant even see her face properly.
might as well dun give can. -roll eyes-
wadever :)

nicole: a math sucks sucks sucks!!!!!

told my mum abt my result in a joking way.
she ish like:WADDDDDDDDDDD??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well. i alreadi fail everything. ;/
she asked mi to study real well next time.
okie. i will. TRY.
i'm not going to drop any subject. i will try my best lar.
if reali tink cannot make it. i dun go on da day of o level lor. ;/
alright. shall stop my nonsense. ;p
//runs



i love AVRIL. YES YES!! I LOVE HER!!!!!!

hair check today.
everybody was like:
'weishan ur hair!' 'ur hair!' 'ur hair sure kena one.' 'wan to put water not' 'u nv bring spray aah?' 'aiyo ur hair so reeeeeddddddd!'
den i thot:
'die la.. sure kena de. ' 'dun check mi! i dun wan to get up' 'i dun wanna get scolded' 'i dun wan to dye black!!!' 'die die die'
but gods noes y. even billie tan didnt ask mi to go in front.
even huilin, ms oh and yc all get away :)
wonder y.

hur hur. got back ALL da papers today.
i fail like shit. totalli shit.
pass onli 2.
2. ;/

english:: compo - 8/30
func.writing - 10/30
compre - 6/25
summary - 4/25


mt:: yin yong wen - 9/20
zhou wen - 27.5/50
paper1 - 36.5/70
listening - 20/20
oral - 21/30
da first time i did soooooooo badly fer mt. -fuck it-


add maths:: 19.5/80?


e maths:: paper1 - 46/80
paper2 - 53.5/100


sci(chem):: paper1 - 14/20
paper2 sect A - 16/45
paper2 sect B - 7/20


sci(phy):: paper1 - 10/20
paper2 sect A - 22/45
paper2 sect B - 9/20

s.s:: 19/50

geog:: sect A Q1 - 2/10
Q2 - 4/15
sect B Q6 - 8/25

da worst result i ever got in my life. :(
fucking sad now. wonder how m i going to tell my mum abt it. how m i going to explain tish shitty result.
guess i didnt work hard enuff.
maybe i shld start bucking up.
its going to be june soon. o levels is getting nearer.
i'm so scared. wad if i didnt pass my o?
:(
feel like giving up.
//runs



i love him not.