juz another post

had a fone chat wif stef and renie yest.
realli confused by stef,
a moment ago she said she had alreadi turn str8,
den after i called renie to conference wif them,
she toks abt gf and stuff.stupid woman.
had a serious headache yest nite.
went to slp after putting dwn da fone.
there goes my phy test. ;/

ermmm,
i may not be updating tish blog often.
due to Os.
its so near.
dun have much tyme to waste.
changing da blog add after Os too.
tat's all fer now.
tata
//runs








sometymes i juz feel like i'm a boy trapped in a woman body.
i dunoe myself anymore.

*dadreamtatwillnevercometrue

sch was fine till da last period.
all thx to yingsheng.
i wasnt angry abt not getting any chocolates.
as if i cant buy it.
lets not tok abt tis.
back to da last period.
our dear ying sheng wrote a love story,
which not at all romantic,
not at all touching.
but it brings back all my pain.
now i;m feeling heartbroken.
his so-so story made mi tink of mi, him and her.
wad da hell.
i juz told myself and all ma buddies tat i alreadi dun like him on monday.
and now,
all da dumb feelings ish back again. :(
grrt.
i even teared when i lay on yp's leg.
i;m like under da table lar, so no one noes.
i'm so sad tat i kept hugging yp in da class.
da whole afternoon ish like so sad lar.
how i wish dere ish someone here now,
can lend mi his/her shoulder and juz let mi cry. :(
he dun even care how i feel.
all he cares abt ish her.
HER.
not ME.
not at all.
:(
i;m gonna write my story too.
buaha.
not an open one.
may be post on blog.
maybe not.
okie.
i gonna say no more.
too sad.
//runs

 

 

 
he walks away wif her,
without knowing tat i'm still waiting.

*ponned remedials

got nth much to say.
was in a lousy mood.
juz wanan tell dad and fag tat i wasnt reali angry wif them,
i was more angry wif ms lee,
its like i type out da whole essay till 1 in da morning,
she sae must write out.
if i dun wanna pass my o, i sure wont write fer her de lor.
knn de lehx.
ponned 2 remedials so i can go home eariler to finish most of my tupid hw.
i;m half done :)
tat's a good thing.
i have never did so much writing b4.
and i have never complete so much of my homework b4.
in a better mood now.
hafta finish everything so i can slp early tonite.
//runs

aini and tuti was looking at gwenyth's foto album
den they look at bryan's pic,
and look at mi again.
den they say bryan and mi look alike.
buaha.
do we look alike?

*ponned remedial

homework fer today:
hols asst - eng compo
hols asst - func. writing
chinese compo
chinese func. writing.

i haben done any of them yet.
m veri veri tired today.
ponned eng remedial.
i mean its a lil waste tyme, i can do da tys myself at hm.
went home and slp like a piggy.
woke up at abt 7.20
slack till now.
gonna do hw soon.
;/
//runs

*new skin

woooohoooooooo
new skin ehx.
a pic of mi and bra-yan.
i find it cute therefore its up dere.
dun get da wrong idea ;p
bryan, hope u dun mind ehx.
:)
gtg.
//walks away

*i miss dem!

okie.was back frm studying.
feel so bad tat i pang seh gay and go study wif rachel instead.
i;m bad.

been sms-ing wif keith.
she's sad tat da girl she like all tis while going to have a bf/gf  soon.
juz like my case.
hmmm,
i dunno wad can i sae to keith,
its like can't help it.
can onli tell her not to sad.
i doubt she can see tish,
but i juz wanna sae,
dear bro,
since she dun appreciate u,
she dun appreciate wad u did fer her,
dun appreciate ur love,
forget her,
u ought to be wif a better girl who will appreciate u.
stop telling urself tat u are ugly and u cant get a gf.
love ish not abt looks,
its abt da heart.
i'm sure one day u can get ur baby.
u still haf stef and mi to care for u hor
and many many of ur frens
thou i may not be tat close wif you,
may not reali be dere when u are sad,
u can always sms mi ya?
do take care.

okies,
i noe how to sae ppl,
dunnoe how to say myself.
buaha.
i;m trying my veri best to forget him.
but hope tat i can be fren wif him till da end of tyme.
;/

stef got bf le.
i concluded myself tat she got a bf lar.
she nv tell mi a thing.
its a guess.
i miss her
her craps
and her laughter.
i miss tat supid gerl, my big jiejie.
i wanna meet up wif dem!

but when can i get out of my dumb hse?
i mean i can get out of da hse lar,
but not veri frequently
and its tat they always jio mi at da wrong tyme.
nvm.

 


i miss stef jiejie and keith korkor alot alot.

duh.

chatting wif stef on msn.
she ish like taking 475748650323yrs to reply mi.
so i decided to blog a lil.
i told her, i feel so bitch and slut looking back at my past.
i;m such a slut.
tink not much ppl noe y i feel slut.
but im such a slut.
i;m silly.
im stupid.
im bitch.
:(

*tired.

went out wif gwenyth.
shop ard bishan.
went woodland library after tat.
did some homework.

feeling tired.
'm tired of telling myself tat i still like him.
telling myself i have to continue to like him.
but its like,
i stand no chance to be him,
why shld i hang on?
i dunnoe.
its like...
haix.
why da fuck i like him.
i dunnoe.
sometymes i told myself, wad's so good abt him?
he ish juz treating mi as a fren.
maybe even juz classmates.
maybe its tyme to let go.
he will nv ever be mine.
sad la.
haha.
but who cares?
he would nv feel how i feel,
nv care how i feel,
nv noe da pain i've been thru.
oh well,
dere 's lots of better guy out dere.
some day, some one will appreciate mi lar.
grrt.
//runs






i still like him :(

hasnt been blogging,
getting lazier.

ponned eng course.
went town wif kahwah, amanda and gary.
kahwah and amanda bought a FF9/ FF10 cigg case stuff, they decide to use it as a wallet.
its veri nice, tink i will buy for my bro.
went back to northpoint.
loiter fer a while den went to mac.
was chatting wif amanda and gary.
went hm after tat.
tired.

hmmm.
i'm a contradicting person.
do i still like him?
if i dun, why do i still think abt him?
why do i still cry when i thot of him as i listen to songs?
WHY?!
i guess ish da disappointment.
all da waiting dun worth.
maybe tat's y.
grrrt.
forget it.

i'm gald tat mi and amanda can be fren again lar.
all tis while i still sondering if she still rmb da quarrel thing, so i didnt tok to her.
but she told mi she forget abt everything le.
so like, juz fren fren lor.

gonna change my skin soon.
downloaded a skin wif  'my sassy girl' pic.  :)
shall stop here.
tata.
//runs

sprained ma ankle :(

sort of ponned da stupid eng course fer awhile.
was sitting at da staircase wif ngiex and chat.
yp thot i was stucked in da toilet so she came to find mi.
yp join da us at da staircase.
afterawhile,
gary thot both of us was stucked in da toilet, he came to find us.
he join us too.
no long after, mrs lee came dwn and we all went into da toilet and gary went back to class.

ms lee told mi tat my english isnt tat bad,
its juz tat my work is always full of spelling and grammer mistakes.
careless.
shall be more careful.
actualli ms lee isnt tat bad at all lar.
shall be guai during her lesson.   :)

after chem remedial, we suppose to go hm.
blackie wanted to send yp hm
so we was like: let's go let's go, let them be alone.
i was talking and walking away quickly
den -duhx-
i sprained my ankle right in front of da sch gate
and fell flat on da floor.
its hurts like shit.
i cant even stand up.
so paisae lor.
sit dere fer a while, they get a cab fer mi and i go hm wif giokhui.
its still hurting now.
wonder if i'm able to wear da costume and da 'flipflop' on wed.
its reali hurts like shit.
tink my parents ish already quite broke, shall forget abt seeing a doc.
guess da ankle will get well by itself.

-yawns-
shall study fer kinematics and get some info on animal abuse.
tata.
//runs

-sighs-

-sighs-
sobbed yest.
yeah yeah becos of HIM.
whenever da thots of da fact that i cant have him came into my mind,
i felt thousands of  knifes stabbing into my hearts.
my mood went down down DOWN.
its as thou my heart ish bleeding.
oh well.
but its alreadi a fact tat i cant have him.

wad i wanna do fer da tish few months:
- forget him [as in not to love him, mi and him still buds ya]
- forget da pain
- study real hard
- not to slp in class
- have positive attitude towards studies
- pass all da FT
- finish all da hw tat i suppose to finish
- be guai
- have lesser outing
- go online lesser
- pass ma Os.

yeah.
thinks tat's all fer wad i can tink of now.
gotta study fer chem test le.
//runs
 

 
 
 
i hate to tear. esp for  him.

back home

okie. went town and bugis again.
basicalli, i'm so FAT tat i couldnt get any skirt tat fits.
bought a purse or sth like a purse.
oh ya,
ytd those 3 men are from da police headquater.
i dunnoe wad reali happen to my i/c and ezlink, probably some crime stuff or wad.
feeling tired.
gotta finish my hw and revise fer chem test.
tata.
//runs
 
 
 
 
i'm so FAT
 

blurr

its abt 12.
someone pressed on my doorbell.
opened da door.
3 men. some sort of offficer or wadever.
tish attention[or wadever it is] syafiq someone found/holding on to my ezlink.
took down a statement and asked mi to fax my police report to him.
i told him i got no fax machine. but he sitll asked mi to fax.
i was a lil blur.
okie. someone found it on da floor or wad.
was told to make a new one.
someone found it, which mean someone ish holding on to my i/c and wallet.
wonder if anything horrible would happen? some illegal stuff?
worried.
i'm sleepy now.
nitez.
-sighs-
//runs

grrt.
i juz typed an entry and it wasnt posted.
let's make it short.
went out wif blackie, kw,ky, xl, moger and yp.
took neos and watched sisters.
going out tml.
that's all fer now.
buaha.
//runs

-edit-

i'm so gald tat i didnt bought won fu's album.
i borrowed from renick.
da lyrics ish so stupid and dumb.
so silly tat i was luffing my ass off.
make my day :)

-whine-

I HATE SCHOOL
feel like ponning tml.
its like always got scolded,
wad da hell, sometymes its not even my fault oso.
i wasnt even sleeping and ms foo shout for mi.
im like how bad mood alreadi
so pissed off wif ms low and chengze lor
i was juz replying sherwin or wad and she scold mi.
fuck lor.
I HATE MYSELF
chengze, u think i like to be ugly meh.
but da god and my parents give mi tish face de ma
wad can i do?
like fuck like tat.
i alreadi veri zi(4) bei(1) le
dun say mi anymore can.
i had enuff comment abt how ugly i m.
even on my way to some places, strangers call mi ugly
when i was in pri sch, ppl call mi pig
my lil cousins call mi ugly u think i not sad meh
u tink i dun wan to change my face meh
u tink i wan to be who i m meh.
y not u try to be mi, and got all those insults
i had enuff of all these shit lor.
dun force mi lor.
i will juz kill myself lor,
call mi stupd or retarded
i cldnt care much anymore.
its reali hurtful lor.
i will jump from 16th floor and fall flat on my face,
so i can disfigure my face,
when blood and flesh all smash and mix together
and no one will see my ugly face anymore.
maybe i shldnt go to sch or stay on earth anymore
monster shldnt walk ard sch to scare ppl
and monster dun belongs to earth
i belong to hell.-pissed-
//runs


i hate to feel hatred. but i was forced to.

CRAMPS! CRAMPS! CRAMPS!

sch ish still as boring as ever.
got my period.
like wad da hell, always so suddenly.
went to da toilet and saw a red patch.
sian half.
-__________-

there was once, my period keep coming for 2 weeks.
grrrt.
hate it.
but i onli have once in every 3 mths :)

m having cramps now.

I HATE CRAMPS!
I HATE HAVING PERIOD!

//runs

*out*

went town and bugis wif giokhui.
i bought a slipper or flip flop or wadever it is. quite nice.
went to took neos wif giokhui
dat machine was rather 'special'
we hafta choose dose pic tat we dun wan so it will not be print out.
but we was so blur and we click on all da pic we wan.
in e end, we got all 16 pieces of da same pic.
we goes : -_____________________-
-faint-
we took it again.
like so waste money...
lazy to upload da neos, shall do it next tyme.
hmmm, any rich boys or girls willing to buy mi a wallet?
i'm like how broke and i lost everything.
i have use up all my allowance fer da month.
2 more weeks b4 i get my allowance.
how m i going to survive?
buaha.
//runs

guess i'm da suay-est persn in da world.
i lost my wallet again.
so ish my ez link, I/C, used movie tickets and all da neo prints lor.
like wad da f***, i thot i put it in my bag.
hope dat someone will at least return mi my I/C.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrt!
was suppose to go out yest
stuck at hm in da end.
but went out wif my mum to get bras
and went to my uncle's chalet.
like how bored lar, so didnt stay dere.
going out wif giokhui later.
still worry abt my I/C and ezlink. ;/
//runs

seriously, i find tat english course got no use.
pon it again.
den da 8 of us [[[[[[ fei mao[fat cat/kahwah], faggot tong[zhou yin ge wang], gary, yingsheng, kaya, xl and my laogong[yp]]]]]]] went to sun plaza to take lunch.
crapping and luffing all da way.
went to cwp den back to sp den to np.
loitering ard.
went hm at ard 5 plus.

english oral tml.
im so nervous.
guess i will fail it again.
i mean its like i try to find point to say
but when i saw da examiner, nth came out of my mouth.
nobody understand how irritating ish tat.
argh.

they are celebrating renick's bdae tml.
shld i go?
//runs

went to watch SPIDY MAN 2 todae.
nth much to update abt ma life.
survey below:

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R

1) pierce your nose or tongue?
tongue.

2) be serious or be funny?
funnie.

3) drink whole or skim milk?
whole. whole milk taste nicer.

A R E Y O U

4) simple or complicated?
veri complicated.

D O Y O U P R E F E R

5) grey or gray?
grey.

6) colored or black-and-white photos?
coloured.

7) lust or love?
LOVE love Love lovE lOVe LovE.

8) sunrise or sunset?
sunset.

9) M&Ms or Skittles?
skittles.

10) rap or rock?
both?

11) staying up late or waking up early?
staying up late!

12) TV or radio?
radio :))

13) eating apples or oranges?
apples.

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y
14) Do you have a crush?
shld be no.

15) Who is it?
maybe its stef? -diaox-

D O Y O U P R E F E R

16) being hot or cold?
cold.

17) sun or moon?
moon :))

18) left or right?
right?

19) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?
1 bestest best friend.

20) sun or rain?
rain.

21) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
both.

22) green beans or carrots?
both.

23) boys or girlZ?
girls rule and boys drool.

24) low fat or fat free?
fat free. -diaox-

M I S C E L L A N E O U S

25) What is your biggest fear in the world?
heartaches and failling my olvl.

26) Kids or no kids?
da more da merrier. -duh- 2 ish enuff.

27) Cat or dog?
Dog.

28) Mustard or ketchup?
ketchup.

29) Hard cover books or soft cover books?
hard cover.

30) Newspaper or magazine?
magazines.

31) Wonder or amazement?
wonder.

32) Red car or white car?
white.

33) Happy and poor or sad and rich?
can i be happy and rich?

34) Singing or dancing?
singing.

35) Hugging or kissing?
hugging.

36) Corduroy or plain?
dunnoe.

37) Happy or sad?
rather be happi.

A B O U T Y O U

Full name?
wendalyn tay wei shan

Nicknames?
shan.

Names and ages of siblings?
weilong, 16.

Number of candles that appeared on your last
birthdae cake?
1 long one and 6 short ones.

Date that you regularly blow them out?
0106

Pets?
2 chinchillas, gigi and jojo [i didnt name dem, its da original owner who gave dem tat name, its kinda orh biang~]

chinese oral.
guess i did badly.
i have nv did well in oral, so, forget it.
again my day ish spoiled by ramesh.
and am flooded wif lotsa hw.
i'm still here, so i'm will NEVER gonna finish anything ;/

homework to do:
1. eng compo [hols asst]
2. eng func [ hols asst]
3. phy papaer [still hols asst]
4. geog [hols asst]
5. eng speech
6. eng summary
7. prepare ss test
8. tuition hw
9. bio ws
10. chem ws

see.
i will never make it.
-roll eyes-
//runs



i'm a lazy ass`

[basics]
name: wendalyn
piercings: 2.
tattoos: 0
height: 158cm
shoe size: 6.
hair color: gonna b black soon.
siblings: elder brother he ish twin wif mi. :)

[last..]
song you listened to: knocking on da heaven's door.
song that was stuck in your head: dao dai - jolin
cd/vcd you bought: tong ming zhuan ji - F.I.R
person you've talk on phone with: giokhui.

[do..]
you have a crush on someone: yea.
you wish you could live somewhere else: japan.
you believe in online dating: Nonsense.
others find you attractive: no.
you want more piercings: tongue piercing.
you like cleaning: I love da satisfaction.
you write in cursive or print: juz scribbling.

[for or against?]
long distance relationships: its crap.
using someone: Against.
suicide: Against.
killing people: Against.
gay relationships: neutral

[have you..]
ever cried over a girl: yesh.
ever cried over a boy: hell yes.
ever lied to someone: to almost everyone.
ever been in a fist fight: no.

[what..]
shampoo do you use: lux super rich.
are you scared of : heartaches and failling my os.

[number..]
of times I have been in love: ZERO
of times I have had my heart broken: 19847964726 tymes -duh-
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: over 10.
of times my name appear in the newspaper: 0

[favourite..]
7 letter word: wendaly.
cartoon: powerpuff girls and tweety.
cereal: nahx.
chewing gum: No idea.
color(s): Black, White, Pink, Blue.
day of week: Friday.
least fave day: sch days.
flower: Sunflower.
jewelry: -
special skills/talent: can slp fer 20 hrs?
summer/winter: winter.

[person who last..]
slept in your bed: Myself
saw you cry: months ago.
made you cry: i dun wanna rmb.
went to the movies with: wif kaya, ms oh and xl.
sent you an email: friendster?

[have you ever..]
gone out in public in your pyjamas: no.
kept a secret from everyone: yea.
cried during a movie: nah.
planned your week based on the TV Guide?: Stupid.
been on stage: yea.
wished you were the opposite sex: sometimes lar.

random
what time is it now: 1.39pm
apples or bananas: BANANAS!
blue or red: blue.
what are you gonna do after you finish this: bath.
wat was the last meal you ate: spag
are you bored: Absolutly.
last noise you heard: knocking on da heaven's door [windtruck ost].
last time you went out of state/province: a yr ago.

[friendship and love ]
do you believe in love at first sight: No.
do you want children one day and if so, how many: 2
most important thing to you in a friendship is: every single thing is important.

[other information]
thing you dislike about yourself the most: Laziness.
worst feeling in the world: Heartbroken.
shunned by someone: ?
who you love: my mom.
who you miss: all my friends.

sad.
its like i still cant get over da pain.
i juz cant.
:(

New Skin!!!

buaha. i changed da skin again.
always changing.
tish ish one of my old skin.
tink i prefer tish to my own one.
feeling shack.
got tonnes of hw and hol asst yet to finish.
dl da ost of windstruck!!!
goodie goodie. :) thx andy!
i'm thinking of sucide again.
its like i cant get over him, i cant do well in my studies.
i such a failure.
i cant see my future.
no point staying on da earth.

okie, back to today.
was walking to sch wif kaya and yp.
we was toking abt, ermmm, how to phrase it, ermm, putting da whole heart and sincerity to show u like someone.
we was telling yp tat sumone ish truly liking her.
den she sae: truly so wad?
mi: den wad? wad's matter most ish da heart tat ish real, rite?
yp: so wad la? if kw sae he truly like u, u will like him meh?
mi: i dun mind
kaya: eh. .....
yp: aiya, like tat person with ur whole hart oso no use de lar.
yp: u see, u so like *****, wad u get?
yp: i so like him [her ex], wad i get?
mi: ... [sadden]
yp ish rite somehow la. NO USE DE.

chinese listening wad quite okie lar, tricky lor.
went hm, quarrel wif my mum.
thot of running away frm hm or jump dwn frm 16 storey.
but nvm le now.
;/
//runs

You are BREAKING THE HABIT. ~I don't know what's
worth fighting for, or why I have to scream.
But now I have some clarity to show you what I
mean. I don't know how I got this way. I'll
never be alright.~


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ponned da dumb english course.
guess almost half of 4a3 ish doing it.
we pon right in front of those teachers. they were like all at da foyer.
its abt 8 or 9 of us.
took 811 wif kahwah and wenyi.
went hm and slp right away.
was suppose to have dinner wif my cousins and all, but my aunt left without mi.
she said i didnt inform her tat i wan to go wif her.
i was like: hur?
i called twice and she ish not at hm. how m i suppose to get her.
i'm too lazy to go alone.
decide to stay at home la.
in case da aunt blame mi or my mum quarrel wif dem or wad so ever la.
and i juz want to SLEEP.

im sick of my blogskin.
//runs

extract tish from kerine's blog, stay some time reading it.

Let me tell u what LOVE is..

For all you people who say, "I love
you" when you have no clue what love is exactly!!!
Something to ponder upon...

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?? -It
isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her/him -
It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?? -
It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's/he's there?? -
It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what everyone wants??
It isn't love, it?s LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her/him?
It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her/him?
It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
It isn't love, it's CHARITY.


Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when she's/he's strong?
Then it's LOVE.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her/him?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part of who she/he is?
Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her/him faithfully without regret??
Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life, your death??
Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why
do we love? Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long
for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is
such an addictive thing that even people who are
not having it wish to experience it and share it
with others as well.






as fer mi:
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?? -It
no.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her/him -
no.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?? -
no.

Do you want her because you know she's/he's there?? -
no.

Are you with her/him because it's what everyone wants??
no.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or held your hand?
-

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her/him?
-

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
a sure NO.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her/him?
ya.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only one you think of?
no.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?
maybe.

Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?
of cos, when i see him cant get her.

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when she's/he's strong?
i wont cry, juz can understand his pain nia.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her/him?
-

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part of who she/he is?
yea

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her/him faithfully without regret??
of cos. i mean faithfully crush on him.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life, your death??
i would die fer him, i tell u. i reali reali reali reali will.


see, i do love him tat lil bits rite.
its not infactuation i can make sure.
but it isnt tat impt anymore ;/

he had chosen her, his love, his dream girl, his "wang xin lin"
and i'm juz a pimple face pig. ;/
ppl often says, when da guy choose da other girl instead of u, dun feel inferior abt urself. u are still a nice girl and he dunnoe wad he have miss out.
but i cant help blaming myself fer not pretty enuff. maybe they dun even see my inner beauty.
buahaha.
wait.
do i have any?

i'm not girlish enuff.
guess nobody will get used to a girlie weishan oso lar.
so i will remain me as myself fer now.
cant be bothered.
so wad if he dun like mi.
so wad if i dun have a guy.
it may be da most beautiful thing in world to fall in love wif da one u love
but i dun believe in love anymore.

monday. 2135

went to watch windstruck wif kaya, yp and xl.
veri touching.
so touching at da last part, all of us teared.
awwww
much touching den sassy girl.
reali like da movie, gonna catch it again. :)
spiderman 2 on wed wif much more ppl.
sch was okie.
quite like it lar, cos like finalli can bytch wif frenx.
unlike hols, hafta be alone.
alright, gonna do my homework now.
windstruck, anyone?
//runs


tuesday. 2203

shacked lar.
its like sch sch sch,
hw hw and more hw, when i haben even finish ma hols asst...
diaox...
chatted wif stef on msn.
she said: i juz told keith tat i wan to mit u.
okie.
she ish jobless til 1 july.
its like onli 3 days away, how can i get out?
so i tink can forget abt mitting, its always sae and nv mit.
got no chance to slip out lar.
hmmm, maybe i shall get her to watch windstruck wif mi. :)
onli if i'm able to get out ;/
la la la.
:) :) :) :) :)
//runs

wednesday
tired.

thursday 2058
alright.
chem was like fer 3 hrs?
and i dun understand even a tiny bits.
hell.
lazy to blog lar.
stef will have no tyme to mit mi from today onwards ;/
she start werking le.
ha.
guess its will be next yr if we gonna mit.
adrian got into ns le.
no more irc mates le ;/
cant even find him during weekends.
school ish getting on find lar. juz tat reali got losta homework.
sometimes i'm juz so envy of my pri sch mates, they are juz so pretty. and they got bf and blah blah blah.
and my life lish like so empty, and i'm not pretty.
okie, rubbish.
//runs


oh, ppl tag mi, juz click on da "i love tattoos" thing :)