- -sigh-
- they juz dun wan to tok to each other..
- now my mum went out.. for mahjong or wad? and god noes wad time seh coming home...
- my dad is oso have mahjong session at home..
- wtf..
- they are not going to settle their stuff..
- they juz dun care..
- why shld i
- i dun see why shld i care.. i beta care for my studies.. no point crying for tis stupid family..
- -roll eyes- wadever..
// go study bio test

- quarrel quarrel quarrel
- the two adults in my home have been quarreling since last week.. till now..
- haben stop..
- still shouting
- still crying
- still fighting..
- non - stop
- i cant help
- i cant stop them
- all i can do now is sitting here
- not tat i have nv try helping its tat they ask mi to go away..
- haiz..
- -sigh- -sigh- - sigh-
- wadever...
//runs

- supose to have go the suntec wif them but end up here..
- family quarrel..
- wadever..
- tat's y i hate my home.. quarrels.. from young till now..
- parents working from day to night.. nv have time for us.. dad is evn worst.. came home onli on friday nite.. and all he do is nag at us..
- wadever la..
- home? its juz sucks..
- y all of u love home.. i dunnoe y.. maybe ur home arre much more better den mine...
- though i always got the things i wanted.. but i'm not much happier den any of u...
- -sigh-
- and ppl dunnoe..
- reali wan to quit studying man.. reali not prepared for the o level lor.. dunnoe if can make it not..
- sian la.. monday still got wad bio focus test..
- tink i gona fail..
- i alreadi fail so many FT.. realli dunnoe when i wan to wake up and work hard..
- life is real bad..
- gh life is much more happier now.. ya?
- sometimes love do makes things different.. change a person life too..
- but.. dun tink i'm not gonna believe in it.. its juz worsen my life somehow..
- oh well.. wadever.. dull life i have.. loveless i have.. and the worst thing is i did so much guilty-cum-regrettful things in my life and now i'm living in pain..
- haiz.. realli dunnoe how la..
//runs

-ARGH!!! I'M BACK~
- i noe why my blog cant see the thing i post.. cos i didnt publish..
- how stupid.. hohoho..
- i've change my sit in class.. now i'm in the first row..
- already quite used to it.. still can sleep a lil in class..
- start to compete all the homework as i'm in front..
- but.. sometime still pass letter to giokhui to tok.. ha..
- today stay back for the o level thingy..
- haiz.. see the senior.. some cry wif happiness some cry becos they did badly..
- make mi so stress sia..
- shld buck up liaoz.. but i still not in the mood to study.. sigh..
- going to tuition liaoz..
- -sigh-
- by the way.. ATTENTION EVERYBODY.. IF ANYONENOE HOW TO CURE THE TROJAN OR VIRUS NAME: Download.Trojan PLISH TELL MI K.. THX PPL~~~
//runs

testing testing

[9 feb]
- its a monday..
- went damien hse for mahjong wif kahwah, wenzi and ah lin..
- on the way dere a lao lan kia look at us wif a shitty kind of face.. and knock wenyi at his shoulder..
- dunnoe is we not hapi or wad la.. i onli noe i see tat guy stare us lor..
- so damien ask his bro to come down..
- and tat lao lan kia kena sae..
- he veri lao lan.. lao lan untill i dunnoe how to sae..
- veri act plus xia lan.. act beng onli.... *PUI!!!*
- play a lil majong den do a lil homework..
- and damien let us stay in his hse and went out himself.. we so trustable wor.. haha..
- anyway we oso stay awhile onli den went home liaoz..
- sometimes i reali hate my bro.. his is juz so fcuk..
- he is driving mi crazy and one of my leg is in the grave now..
- wad a guy... suck suck suck..hate him.....
- valentine day coming... ts tis friday..
- wonder wad are we doing and going tis valentine..
- ya..
- it another 'steadless', 'lonely' valentine.. and shld be spending wif all the frenz..
- hope its gonna be fun if we are going out..
- argh!!! so bored..
- my mouse dead.. the com's mouse la..
- dumb fcuka.. spoil at tis time.. good lor.. cannot play any game or use the net.. my dad will be damn glad..
- and i can onli type all abt my life here..
- and its bored..
- have to do all those tough maths qns..
- pls pray tat my mouse will be okie soon..
//runs[10:27]

[11 feb]
- health check..
- course.. makes mi understand more abt life and goals..
- shall work toward my dream lor..
- haiz.. mouse still spoil.. shal update again..
- american idol!!!
- buaiz...
//runs

OP VBALL WON AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
- hmm.. read giokhui's blog.. ermmm.. juz wanna tel gh.. dere's no mahjong session on the 6th..
- yesterday was almost late for the focus test..
- den went to watch vball match..
- den went back to yishun BK wif joyce and xl..
- den went to ngee ann poly open hse wif them..
- np was big.. soso la.. dun have e course i wn..
- nyp open hse is nxt week.. shall go and take a look...
- boring day..
- i'm so slack.. i wan to work hard for the tupid o lvl but juz cant..
- sian half..
- gtg...
//runs...

[2 jan]

- i m grounded from today onward..
- sigh
- but i still can sneak out.. haha..
- hmmm..
- no mood fer study in school.. slack all the way from geog lesson onward..
- ha..
- work out a time table for myself.. hope i will follow e time table..
- reali dislike the ms lee.. siao char bo..
- sian ahz.. time to study le..
// runs [7:56]

[3 jan]

- school again..
- sian half. dunnoe who go complain abt we are too noisy in geog class..
- try to finish all the dumb hw while waiting for bingyun n gang.. but cant finsih..
- went home.. den rus hout to grandma hse to take dinner for my bro..
- on my way home.. mic msg mi.. she quarrel wif her family member n ask mi out to acc her fer dinner.
- i thot my mum wld let mi.. but.. nahz..
- left her all along fer dinner...
- slack in front of com..
- oh no!!!
- my hair keep on dropping.. when i wash my hair i notice tat sth was wrong..
- den after i came out i make it day.. more drop out..
- i comb my hair.. drop drop drop..
- is sth wrong ???!?!?!??!?!
- dun tell mi i gonna bald at tis age.. might as well open a hole for mi to hide in hor..
- argh!!!!!! dunnoe how lehz!!! forget it...
- go do all those dumb dumb hw and tuition work le...
//runs


[6 jan]

- too lazy to type a thing..
- suddenly thinking of things to write..
- juz feel tat.. the frendship pf 4 is tearing apart.. no quarrels.. but nth to share..
- one has found her real best frenz.. 3 was spend most time together..
- one has her loving bf..
- one.. who is more attached to the other 1...
- now.. i have been going home wif the a4s..
- the 2 have vball.. the 1 wif bf.. and i feel all alone..
- the time i spend wif other frenz [those frenz sitting ard mi..] is more than the time i spend wif the 3..
- we juz ate together during recess.. chat abit tat's all.. on ya.. sit together in the morning.. and tat's a lil meaningless to mi..
- i dunnoe how they feel if they see tis blog.. its not tat i wishing dere is some changes after they see tis blog.. and dun tink there will be changes..
- its juz how i feel tis afternoon when i find tat i have to go home alone..
- ya.. they still care for mi [i hope so].. but the feel of frenz ship is no longer dere[ or not tat strong le lor]
- dunnoe..
- and i spending most time wif the a4s.. but our time schedules is so diff..
- go tuition liaoz..
// runs

1. First Name: WeIsHaN
2. Were you named after any anyone?: NaHz..
3. Do you wish on stars?: UsEd to dO iT wHeN i waS yOuNgEr..
4. Which finger is your favourite?: MiDdLe fInGeR!!! -point up middle figner- HaHa.. No La.. My TiNy LaSt FiNgEr..
5. When did you last cry?: ShLd Be... eRmMmM.. eHhH.. wHeN?
7. What is your favourite meat?: aNy MeAt eXcEpT pOrK..
8. Any bad habits?: BiTe My NaiLs..
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?: hUh? i DuN hAb..
10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you?: MaYbE lA.. MaYbR nOt cOs i DuN wAtCh wAD i SaE..
12. Do looks matter?: It DoEs MaTtEr SoMeHow.. aveRaGe caN Le La.. uNdEr avEraGe OsO cAn..
13. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: YeA.. eSpeEciAlLy iN eNgLiSh.. HaHa..
14. Is there a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: Of CoS nOt..
15. Do fish have feelings?: MaYbE iT doEs? the fish didnt tell mi~~
16. Are you trendy?: let mi tink abt it..n i'll let u all noe..
17. How do you release anger?: cUt MySeLf.. BaNg mY hEad On WaLL.. If GoT cIgG FDeN sMoKe.. GoT bEeR dEn dRiNk.. ShOUt.. LiStEn To MuSiC.. BaNg EvERyThInG.. cRy.. SlEeP..
18. Where are your second homes?: sChOoL La, tOwN?
19. wat's ur favourite toy as a child: AlL tHe SoFt ToYs aNd BaRbIe DoLLs!!! aNd My BrO's ToYs tOO.. HoT wHeEL La?
20. subjects in sch do u tink are totally useless?: EvERY sUBjEcT hAve It uSeS LoR.. If nOt sTuDy fOr WaD?
21. hav u ever been on radio or television?: tV.. I wEnT tO wAtCh a PrOgRAMmE dEn aCcIdEnTaLlY gOt On tV..
22. Do u keep a journal?: YeA.. sChOoL jOUrNaL.. BlOg.. PeRsOnAl DiArY..
23. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: eRMm? NoT rEalLi?
24. Have you been in a mosh pit?: wAD's TiS qNs toKiNg AbT?
25. What do you look for in a guy/girl?: aS LoNg As We CaN cLiCkS.. gOoD PeRsONaLiTy?
26. What are your nicknames?: ShAn.. ShAn-Dy.. sHaNShAn.. HaHa.. So AcT cUtE LoR...
27. Would you bunjee?: YeA!!!
28. Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off?: SeE wHiCh ShoEs LoR..
29. What are you worried about right now?: hAiZ.. I dUnNoE wAd i'm WoRrY aBt.. O lEvEl BaH?
30. Do you ever wear overalls?: hUh?
31. What's your favourite ice cream flavor?: cookies n cream, StRaWbERrY.. RaSpBeRrY.. chOcO.. VaNiLlA.. Swt CoRn.. MaNgo.. HoHo.. aS LonG Aas It's NoT dUrIaN's..
32. Whats your favourite colour/s?: No PaRtIcUlAr cOlOuR.. JuZ HaTe DaRk gReEn..
33. What is your least fav. thing in the world?: PpL WhO cHeaTeD otheR's FeElInG [LoVe].. 2 tImEr..
34. How many people have a crush on you right now?: WhO wOuLd HaVe a cRuSh On Mi? mY LooKs CaNnOt MaKe It LaRz..
35. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back?: It's On my BlOg.. EvERyBoDy.. dO iT aNd PoSt On Ur BlOg.. yEa?

[24 jan]
- oh ya.. angie we saw u on the 21st!! haha.. WiF uR dArl.. At ThE bAlLooN 'shop', orchard~
- gh, xl and gen came to my hse.. plus rachel plus all my relatives..
- didnt spend my day at home as i thot not much ppl coming..
- juz as i decided to go out.. alot of ppl come liaoz..
- my fav cousin, xindi oso come.. its has been some time since i last see her lor.. he mum got 'prob' wif our parents lor.. den her mum ask her and her sis not to contact us.. dotzzz...
- i miss her.. was so hapi to see her.. have a great cry when all the relatives see them.. cos of their mum.. so lame la her.. they cry too.. sob sob..
- went movie.. last samurai.. nice.. thou i dun realli understand everything.. hohoho..
- went home..
- suddenly i remember stef said she wanna call mi..
- StefY!!! StEfY!!! u said u wan to call mi de hor.. BLuFF eHz~~~~ =p i waited for ur call.. n blahz.. its now 00:08 am!!!
- hmmm.. can understand.. maybe u are bz.. haha.. nvm..
- hmmm.. i doubt stef can see this ? unless she visit my blog..
- so tired..
- oh no!!!
- my homework all nv do!!! die liaoz..
- tml still visiting places lorrrr.... i'm dead..
-let's pray that somebody juz didnt do any of the homework juz like mi.. haha.. not i veri bad la.. i juz hope tat i wont be the onli person get scolding.. veri paisae one leh..
- *yawnz*
//runs

[25 jan]
- stay up till 4 am.. accompany my cousin as those adult having the mahjong session again..
- keith called mi and ask mi to go out wif them again.. but i realli cannot make it lor.. have to go out wif parents
- sori ah keith and stef..~
- went to visit dunnoe who.. the elderies..
- went to my cousin hse.. stay till 7 pm den go home..
- try to do my homework...
- sigh.. but shld be cant be finish.. cos its now 11:19pm!!
- still on the fone now.. [11.35]
- sian.. actaulli wan to call stef but dun dare to..
- sianz..
//runs

[26 jan]
- i woke up at 3.45am.. trying to do all those bloddy helly homework..
- but i cant finish it..
- -sigh-
- have to push it to tml again.. if these go on.. i will nv finish my homework!! -argh- wad to do..
- went back to sleep after packing my bag..
- didnt pay mauch attention in school today.. i either day-dreaming or sleepign lor..
- veri tired lor.. onli sleep for 4 hrs..
- hmmm.. miss stef.. its has been a long time since we last chatted.. she seems depressed when i msg her ytd.. or wadever..
- i'm so bored.. still have lotz of homework not done...
- shld i finsh it all?
- shagged...
- its 11.27 now.. and the chinese compo~~~~~ oso not yet done~~~~~~~
- -whine-
- argh.. kill mi kill mi!!! i dun wan to do any homework...
- i too lazy to do a thingy....... fuck fuck fcuk....
- slacker slacker slacker slacker slacker slacker~~~ mi!
- counted those ang bao money.. $298? i dunoe.. abt tat la.. alreadi alot le lor... but its still not enough for my sumsung e700
- go do the tupid chinese le la..
//runs

[27 jan]
- a long day in school..
- and a boring day too..
- the whole day was kpo-ing abt damien de relationship de probs..
- got 'scolded' by chua.. hmm its juz tat worksheet not done maz.. den he ask mi go home do..
- den 4 sth den got chem remedial...
- went home at 6?
- reach home pon pon den sit in front of the com typing tis entry le.. but i haben blog it yet..
- it's tuesday!! gonna watch pck, oh carol denz light years..
- homework? shall do them lata la.. see my mood lor.. hoho..
- still miss stef.. its going to be a week since i last chatted wif her..
- we are drifting apart? she is bz bahz.. still got her own relatoinship probs.. maybe lor...
- i'm so sianzzzz
- *sianzation*
- k la.. go take dinner liaoz..
//runs [7.49 pm]

[28 jan]
- school..
- took foto as vball team..
- went home at 6 wif bingyun mic and yawen at 6pm
- call keith and stef.. chat abit den hang up liao cos my hp bill veri expensive de..
- dunnoe sunday going wif gh they notz.. maybe going somewhere else or wad lor.. dun feel like squeezing lehz..
- go do chem hw and study liaoz..
- nitey..
//runs

[29 jan]
- 3 more days before i officialli go online and updte my blog..
- a maths test so difficult lor.. plus i didnt study lahz..
- sian lor.. phy remedial..
- I LOST MY WALLET!!! and i cant find it..
- went to the interchange to ask abt it lor.. but cannot find leh.. juz hope the person who find it can return mi.. u can take the money.. but i juz wan my stuff in there.. though nth special inside.. but all my impt crads are lor.. i dun care abt those little money noe.. i juz wan my cards!!!
- curse the person if he throw my wallet after taking my money.. bless tat person if he take the effort to return mi the wallet.. even if he take the money.. i juz wan my wallet!!!
- MY WALLET!!!- whines-
- forget it.. i'm going out tis few days and i dun have ezlink card. so i have to use my own money lor.. wad e F***..
- i'm so broke yet i lost everything.. haha.. wad a great~~~ time i'm having..
- hmmm... wad i have for my homework???
- i dunnoe.. k la.. gonna check it..
- and gh!!! i dun like stef kkk... i juz find her veri easy to chat wif tat's all.. haha.. dun get the wrong idea plish.. haha.. she is juz a frenz..
//runs

[30 jan]
- cant find my wallet.. forget it.. tink cant be found le la.. go make a new wzlink tml...
- tml having focus test.. sian..
- go take dinner le..
//runs

[31 jan]
- have focused test..
- opvball have won their first match!!!! everyonw was so hapi!!! even chong.. yawen even cry..
- i m hapi as i m in tat cca..
- all the best for all the others 5 matches!!!
- went wenyi hse wif damien, mish, ah-lin, chengze, lcs and gen..
- mahjong all the way..
- got my new ezlink..
- have to do my tuition work liaoz.. tml tuition..
- tink i might change my blog add..
//runs
- back..
- life is full of shit.. is not filled wif hapiness but all the the fucking homeworks..
- a thousand piles of those fucking homework.. tuition homework school homework...
- who do u think i m... i m no super woman..
- dun expect mi to finish all these shit..
- if i didnt do the sch work the teachers scold mi... if i didnt do my tuition work my tuition cher and parents scold mi..
- sometimes its not tat i didnt wan to do.. it juz tat i dun even understand a fucking shit out of it lor..
- i didnt bother to sae and u didnt bother to ask..
- all these are stressing mi.. and i gonna hit my head on to the wall..
- nobody understand my world.. its juz so fuck up..
- cant even use the fone for awhile.. and got misunderstood by ppl tat i m lying..
- i fell asleep while rushing tuition and i was waken up.. cant i sleep? i juz felt tat it doesnt matter if i do the hw or notz lor..
- wad's the big deal? is dere a nid to kick a big fuss out of those shit ?
- its juz homework..
// runs

[1 feb]
- i'm back to blog!!!
- tuition
- met stef and kieth..
- juz as nice as they were on the fone lor..
- went home..
- here to blog..
- it's moi new blog!!!